Hi, I’m Marcelino. I’m thirty years old and trying to quit drinking. My dad drinks and has always drank and i started myself b even I was about twelve. Now I drink whisky, a lot at a time. I always check regret it the following day. I have stints where I go a few weeks to a month without it. When I’m sober I go to the gym, work on my goals and accomplish so much, but then I start drinking again and can’t wait to come home to have a drink and get nothing done. I hate myself because I know I can reach my goals if I could come just quit. Once I start drinking I’ll drink almost everyday for about a month at a time.
I am Brooks, I am 35 and not sure I want to quit drinking. I did grow up with an alcoholic father and a physically and sexually abusive family situation. I’ve never binge drank, I find that I am able to not drink when the time calls for it. In fact for many years I only drank at parties or when I went out to eat. I discovered pain killers about 10-12 years ago before I started to deal with my problems. I don’t take the pills regularly anymore because I don’t have access to them any more. Since I lost access to the pills about 4-5 years ago I started drinking more. I started to drink every night after work and every weekend. Some times just 1 other times its 4-5 mixed drinks a night. I’ve always had an issue being “addicted” to something. If it’s not the pills, it’s the alcohol, if it’s not alcohol it’s cigarettes or pot. Now it’s Kratom and alcohol.
I am fine with drinking some but I am feeling like it’s getting to the point where I am using it to escape.
I am just looking to be in control again. Not sure if that makes sense.
Hello, my names James. I’m 28 years old, and I’m struggling with alcohol abuse. In my teens I experimented with different mind altering substances; including cocaine, pills such as oxycontin, mushrooms, acid, many others, and most predominantly marijuana.
After turning 18 I stopped really doing anything but smoking marijuana, after turning 21 I finally discovered I enjoyed alcohol. About 3-4 years ago I stopped smoking, mainly due to relationships, and started to drink much more heavily. I had just gone back to college in order to get my bachelors, and was engrossed into a crowd where drinking was the norm, as per many people’s college experience.
Since then I’ve gone from 2-3 beers 3 days per week to 6-7 beers 7 days per week, with the occasional binging. The longest break I’ve taken is 11 days, and that’s only because I was deathly sick in the Phillipines on vacation. It seems evertime I try to stop I always make excuses. I’m concerned I’m having heart problems as I’ve noticed a considerable spike in my blood pressure and heart rate.
Professionally and personally it hasn’t caused me any harm, yet. I mainly do it out of boredom and as a means of relieving stress. I also just love good beer. I know I need to do something though to curb my addiction before some serious repurcussion occurs. I know I can lead a more prosperous life, and I know this addiction is holding me back.
I guess this is the first time I’ve admitted to anyone other than myself that I’m an alcoholic. I plan to use this site to help learn from others, and to document my progress. Thanks if you took the time to read that and understand my problems.
Hello. My name is Zaniel. I’m 26 years old. I live in Cape Town South Africa. I’m an addict. I don’t have much to say at the moment. Just glad to be here.
Welcome @Marcelino, @Bolsen, @JamesC, and @Zyzz1990! Congratulations on finding the strength to admit you have a problem. This forum is here to help you with advice and emotional support, so don’t hesitate to make use of it! Thank you for sharing your stories.
I completely understand what you feel. Nothing too drastic has happened to me either but all the little things add up. Plus life is so much better without hangovers and nights and days of regret. Glad you shared.
I think I’m in a similar situation, but unfortunately I’ve not had any long period in the last 3-4 years where I’ve stopped drinking. About 2 days in right now and I’m going to see how long I can go. I hoping at least a few weeks.
Hi, Brooks. What you wrote makes total sense. As we now, oftentimes people abuse substances to escape from reality, I can vouch for that. I’ve often been drinking either to forget some pain, or just by being bored and not believe that I can have fun without it. It’s gradual, but I feel more and more in control of myself and it’s a good feeling. Hope you reach a point in your life where you feel that you are in control of it
I understand when you say you are do productive and happy when you can quit and get a few weeks sober. The same thing happens to me, but then when I relapse I drink every single day and can’t seem to stop again for weeks. Its quite the rollercoaster. I guess what I’m trying to tell myself this time is to celebrate how precious every minute of recovery is and constantly have my defense up when the craving comes
Hi. My name is annie. Ive been sober for one year one month and fourteen days. My drug of choice is meth. I started smoking it and before i knew it i was shooting it. I fell in love with it. Until i realized how it was destroying everything. My boyfriend and I decided to get sober. Build a life. Then i got pregnant with our daughter. In the middle of my pregnancy he relapsed. I did everything i could to try to help him. But now he is going to prison for five years. He was arrested the night our baby was born. I struggle some with being sober. But my biggest struggle is finding the energy to take care of everything. I have my girls, a full time job, a house that seems to mess its self up when no one is home, and about to start backto school. I feel like im drowning in all the responsibilities. Im trying so hard to keep my head above the water. I catch myself thing god if i would just do one bump i could have this hole house clean, and then be able to get everything else done i need done. But i know one bump wont be my last. I know i cant tien to drugs to help with my responsibilities. I know it will destroy everything i have rebuilt. I dont know, any one with any advise?? It would be greatly appreciated…
Hi my name is Nathalia. I’m from Norway. Sorry my bad english… i have used all from weed to heroin. But weed became the love of my heart and i had really big problems quitting it. It made med lose all my money, almost my appartment, good friends, family and my boyfriend. I know weed is not dangerous, but it was my biggest problem. I have som diagnoses as borderline personality disorder, ptsd, anxiety and depression. My father was an heroin addict, he died because of that 2 years ago. I really miss him. I have two sisters andre 8 nieses. Im 27 years old. I have a golden retriever named tricco. He is 9 years old andre ive got him when he was 7 weeks old. I started uting drugs everyday when i was 19. Now i have been clean for 1 year and 18 days
Hi, my name is Amy & I live in Orange, Tx. I’ve been sober since November 25th, 2011. I’ve done everything but heroin & was addicted to opiates & alcohol toward the end of my drinking & using career. I started using when I was 12 yrs old & stopped when I was 37. I got a great sponsor right off the bat who took mw through the first 164 pages of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous & worked the 12 steps a few times in the past four yrs. I was GSR for my home group for 2 yrs & started sponsoring women too. This past year has been one big shit storm after the next. I fell into a deep depression last Oct & started isolating from my home group, friends & family. I have been sponsoring myself & that’s not good lol. I want to get back into service & the steps. So much has changed lately & I’m afraid I don’t know how to get back. I’m hoping I can reach out through this site & get some insight. Anyway, that’s what’s been going on with me lately…glad to be here & looking forward to meeting some new people in sobriety.
Hello all! I am Heather. Where do I start?!?! I’ve always had a drinking problem. I am not someone who can just have one drink and go home. I blackout probably 8 times out of 10. I got sober in 2013, it lasted about a year. I thought that I could handle drinking again. It all started when I went to San Diego, we drank everyday we were there and by the time I made it home I was back to my old drinking habits. It has progressively gotten worse over the last month. Then last week I went on a 4 day drinking binge and had a manic depressive episode while out of my mind drunk. I tried to kill myself and ended up in the hospital where they in turn put me in a psych ward for 5 days. I finally got to come home on Monday and it’s been a struggle. I am afraid if I relapse again I won’t make it. Today is 8 days sober.
@NotAgain 8 days is a great start! It’s a HUGE step! I’m working through it myself. Day 4 here. This site is so supportive. You got this. One day at a time.
Hi Guys. I am an alcoholic. 37 years old and also in South Africa. - 25 days clean and counting. Thank you for this forum. I hope to participate and learn as I go.
Hi,
I’m Wes and I’m a sexaholic. Been sober 2 days and I’m trying to stay focused. Had a good SA meeting last night. This all started when I was 10 and discovered masturbation. Porn and Masturbation has been my drug for 24 freaking years. I was picked on and made fun of my whole life so the Porn was my friend that made me feel good about myself. I carried it into my marriage and it in near destroyed that. I got Caught again with Phonesex and that’s what got me to SA and then I was doing really good and then I took a 5 month relapse. Back at it now. Step One is putting your story together and I’m working on that but I hope my wife doesn’t find my Journal cause if she does she’ll find I went to Massage Parlors and cheated on her and I’ll lose everything. I have to take that risk though. I’ve been practicing Honesty and telling the Truth and I can’t lie. Thanks.
