My name is Elise. I am 25 years old and I live in rural Minnesota, USA. I have recently come to the realization that alcohol and I do not mix. I make poor decisions and tend to cause harm to myself when my mood is low. I am diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and PTSD. I would use alcohol to attempt to drown out everything. I wanted to be numb. When I was around 18, I was experimenting with various drugs to try to numb myself as well. I haven’t been sober very long but I am happy to see there is an instant support system available. Thank you in advance for the support!
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Hi I’m Michael alcoholic addict for 22 yrs 4 weeks ago God smacked me hard with a huge wake-up call when I crashed my truck and almost killed my son. He’s going to ok thank God and thank everyone who has helped out.got sent right to jail for the first time am out on 100k unsecured bail and just got out of inpatient rehab. Just saw him for the first time in a month. It’s killing me inside seeing and knowing what I did to him and I will get through this so I can the best daddy I can be. I’m seeing now how long and hard this road is going to be. Thanks for letting me share I’m having a really hard time with this
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I’m sure you can do it. I believe in you 
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You should count it a blessing that you never write hit rock bottom, and you were wise enough to stop yourself before you did.
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I’m so sorry you had to endure all that pain… But you’re right, in the end it does make you stronger. I suffer from 4 diagnosed mental illnesses myself, one of which being bipolar, so i have a unique perspective if you ever care to pick my brain. Your story is an inspiration
When I went to the NA meetings, they called this feeling “the pink cloud”… Right after you quit and finish the withdrawals, you feel a sort of mild euphoria, like you can do or accomplish anything. Don’t rely on that pink cloud, because reality never stays that sweet for long. Stay strong and you can do it!
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Right now your first priority had to be getting clean. I know you have babies but if you don’t get clean, they’ll never have the sober, wonderful mother they could have. If you have any family that can help you, have them take your children for a few weeks while you kick your habit. If possible, seeking counseling and medical assistance so you can get your babies back quicker. Nothing is more important than kicking this habit, not even school. Because you won’t be able to be a good student if you don’t get sober. Once you get your babies back and your sober, then you can work out your school and boyfriend issues. My fiance is in prison too, so if you every need emotional support just PM me.
You and I have the exact same disorders! Borderline, ptsd, anxiety and depression. I know what a nightmare they can be to live with. I’ve also done every drug under the sun, and now I’m 33 days sober. If i can do it, so can you!
I’m currently studying to be a drug abuse therapist, not to mention that my experience with every drug known to man helps with my choice of career. Lol.
My point is, in here to help and provide insight, or just sit and listen. PM me anytime
You can make it. I believe in you. I know i say that to everyone, but it’s always true. The fact that you even had the strength to come to the forum and admit you have a problem shows you have the strength!
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Welcome! We are here to help inn any way we can!
I’m sorry… I can’t offer you support on this one. I was deeply in love with two porn addicts and porn destroyed my relationships.
All i can say is that i hope you overcome your addiction, because you’re not just hurting yourself…your breaking the hearts of those that love you.
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Ah, another young woman with ptsd and BPD, just like me. Seems like a recipe for disaster doesn’t it? But we are here to support you, and if you need to talk to someone who understands your disorders intimately, judt PM me
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Thank you so much for your support. This forum has already helped me and I just downloaded it a couple days ago.
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I understand and frankly I hate how much it has controlled me and made my wife feel. Thankfully we are still married and healing.
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Hi Michael, wow that’s pretty full on, I cannot imaging what that feels like or how you are feeling. Glad your son is going to be ok. You are in the right place and it you have taken the right steps into finding freedom. We are all here for each other, I can understand you are having a real hard time but try and focus on your son and your sobriety. Alcoholism is a disease and you are not alone, sending you positive vibes your way.
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Hi. My name is Anthony. I’m 37 and live in Dallas, Texas. I’ve been struggling with alcohol addiction for about 10 years now. I’ve tried to seriously quit about four times now. I managed to remain sober for exactly an entire year in 2013. I celebrated my one year of sobriety by getting drunk.
I realized pretty early that I had a problem with alcohol and knew it could lead to addiction but as years went on I didn’t consider myself an alcoholic because I didn’t drink every day. I’ve always been the binge drinker type which I now know is still alcohol abuse and I know I’m an alcoholic and I need to stop.
I know exactly what alcohol abuse has lead to in my personal life, my family life, my work, and my health but yet I continue to drink. My choice of alcohol for the past few years is red wine, cab to be exact. I drink about a bottle and a half each night I drink (three 750ml bottles each week), once during the week, then on a Fri or Sat night. Most times I fall asleep and don’t remember much of the night before. I’ve woken up with spilled wine all over my couch next to me, I’ve urinated on myself while passed out drunk, been late to work many times, I’ve said and done so much stupid crap while drunk and I always regret it. I’ve somehow managed to show up to work, still buzzing from the night before smelling like alcohol I’m sure. I work in a hospital and part of my job is to help people with liver disease due to alcoholism. I’ve always told myself I wouldn’t end up like them or turn out that way, but as I’m approaching 38 I’m starting to get scared. That will be me if I don’t stop this now.
My youngest brother who is 28 also suffers from alcoholism and as of today he is 29 days sober and I’m so proud of him. I inspired him to quit, yet I continued drinking, but now he’s inspired me to follow my own advice. It’s really now or never it feels like.
I’m lucky to have great support from my family and friends. They have all reached out a helping hand and now I’m going try this again. It’s only been a little more than 24 hours for me.
I’m just ready to spend more time with my family & friends, not feel hungover and sick or look tired and sleepy, take my dogs for long walks, go for bike rides. I know there’s a better life out there. Wish me luck!
Best of luck to you all.
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@Anthony Thanks for sharing your story, I relate to you in some things. Keep your head up, you can do this again! I’m glad you have your brother to encourage you & vise versa. Happy sober day for today! One day at a time! Together we can do it! Blessings! 
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Thank you @Soberlife05! I appreciate your encouragement and positivity! Stay strong as well.
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hey @Anthony you have done so well, don’t be so hard on yourself. what a great achievement!!! Sure you hit a bump in the road but you have proved that you can do it. Keep going and don’t ever give up. Sending you positive vibes. 
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