Im jennifer, but go by jenn … i am an addict… my best friend at the time was dling it , so i was like i wanna know what all the hype was about …
There started my addiction. , we would count change for gas, sell we could to get our fix … i quit around 2016, and relapsed around 2018… but have been sober since…
I just get this flashbacks when there are needles on tv, or can the coke …
Just wondering when will that ever go away
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Welcome Jenn 
I don’t have experience with IV drugs and/or opioids myself but if you search “cravings” or “triggers” in the search bar - or if you search something like “needles triggers” - you should be able to find some threads that are relevant.
Don’t give up. By staying connected and learning and sharing - keep in touch here! - you can find your freedom.
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Hi all,
I’m Andrew, 32 and from the UK. I’ve previously had dry spells in the past, and I’ve also been an active member of this community in the past. Unfortunately, I fell off the wagon somewhat, and I ended up relapsing.
My circumstances have changed since I was last here - I’m now in a healthy and stable relationship, and I live with my partner. She isn’t a big drinker, but we both agreed that my drinking was more of an addiction as opposed to a habit or social aspect of my life. I’m currently looking for a job after being let go from my previous job, so it’s fair to say that I have some time on my side now. I’m trying to fill my time and just remain occupied. It’s going ok so far.
Nevertheless, it’s good to be back. ODAAT.
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Hi my name is Sarah and today is day 15 being sober from alcohol. Today I have been pampering the crap out of myself since I desperately needed rest because ever since I quit drinking I was all over the place especially after 6 day of detox, which was a really bad experience for me because they didn’t do things the right way causing me to almost die twice over, long story. I realized today that the one thing I have not done for myself is relax and rest to take care of myself, which was causing so much more stress and anxiety it was ridiculous…. I found out about this app from someone in my group today and was reading some of what was being said and realized I was being extremely hard on myself and that is not healthy. I am working on getting into either a 28 day treatment center or intensive IOP to continue with my healing journey.
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Hi Sarah and welcome. I’ve been on this app for about 70 days. I found it when I was 110 days free from alcohol. It’s a great resource to stay connected and the TS community seems to be very supportive. I hope you find the rehab program and continue your recovery. Please keep us informed of your progress and reach out if you need help. I also am active in AA and it has kept me alive. Stay strong and vigilant. Keep resting 
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Thank you I will.
Hi Everyone, I’m Jason and have been an alcoholic for a very long time. Long story short I started when I was 16 and progressively got worse as life moved on. At first i thought it was all fun and gave a fun time feeling, but i soon realized that I wouldnt stop untill i was the hammered guy at every party. The thing is I could always remember everything that happened (im not sure if that makes things mentally worse). I still havent figured out why yet mentally.
Binge drinking every weekend in my teens was a regular this. Then it led into my 20’s and early 30’s.
The thing with this addiction i noticed is that you’ll always find a way to keep it going, even if it means losing friends and finding new people that will keep the addiction thriving… needless to say, ive done this alot.
Fast forward to my last 2 years of drinking (38 now) and its progressed to drinking 8-12 beers a day without break. Everywhere i looked i was feeling pains and possible symptoms of liver failure or kidney disease. I was scared. I quit for 3 months then relapsed going back to the full amount with one 10 day try at quitting in beteeen. I’m now 36hrs without a drink, I cant have another, I know i’ll die and leave my family with nothing. Each time i quit the detox is more painful, and im tired of feeling like such a loser all the time around others.
Anyway, im excited to join, i’ve been reading in since January and its helped tremendously. Theres a ton more I could say about how alcohol has effected my life, health, work, family, friends… but it would be a book.
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Welcome to the community and congratulations on your 1+ day of sobriety 
. Grateful you found us. Keep at it and stay connected. Together we can stack up the sober days 
My name is Liora, and I’m an addict — but today, I’m 102 days sober.
My journey hasn’t been easy. For years I battled addiction — first cocaine, then painkillers — always chasing something to fill a void. I have an addictive personality, and for so long, it felt like I was fighting myself every single day.
But today I feel better than I have in years — honestly, better than I can even remember. Recovery has given me clarity, strength, and a sense of peace I didn’t think was possible.
If you’re struggling, please know it’s never too late to turn it around. Sobriety isn’t easy, but it is worth it. I’m learning to love life again — and more importantly, to love myself.”
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Welcome Liora!
Congratulations on ur 102 days sober!! Great work!
I can relate to that “void” u speak about. I tried to fill that void for decades with substances and other addictive behaviours. It never worked. It was always so temporary. Recovery has given me many things and one of those things is no longer experiencing that inner void due to the spiritual connection I have today with my HP.
Glad ur here! Hope to see u posting more!
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Thank you for the warm welcome to this community 
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Welcome to the community Liora and a huge congrats on your sober time - in the triple digits that is incredible work.
Glad that you have found us. This is a very supportive community with like minded fellows dealing with similar addiction journeys. Take your time to read around and join in when you feel comfortable.
Hope to see you around 
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Thank you so much for welcoming me into this community. With addiction, it’s not always easy to find people who truly understand, and I’m so grateful to have found that here. I really value having this group and the support it brings.
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You are most welcome. This is such a wonderful safe space to connect with others who understand the struggles of addiction
Glad you are here with us
So relatable about the addictive personality. Whether we swallow or chug or snort, it’s all the same avoidance isn’t it.
Welcome to the site, nice to meet you, stick around 
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Welcome to the wonderful world of sober folk. How are you doing today?
Hello! Excited to have found this community. I’ll try to be brief-ish but I started drinking heavily around 2013 when I was in my early 20’s, following my mum’s passing, and have continued doing so (actually got progressively worse) ever since.
I’m 36 now and I started reading loads of quit lit maybe 2-3 years ago now and it’s been heavily on my mind to quit ever since - I’ve largely done poorly but did manage an 8 week of period of abstinence at one point. Hoping having found TalkingSober, I’ll have new tools at my disposal that’ll allow me to succeed.
One of the things I’m most looking forward to in sobriety is getting much fitter!
Today is day 1 for me (it already feels tough and it’s only 4pm lol). Look forward to seeing everyone around!
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Welcome to the community and to your first day of sobriety…stay connected and keep yourself distracted.
Read around here… community is filled with caring members who understand the struggle m. You are not alone.
The daily check in thread has been great for my accountability. Also does wonders to connect with others and their stories.
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Hi there! It is really weird sitting here writing on a forum, long time since I was active on the net.
My name is Luis and I am an addict. From time to time I try to trace the addiction back to its most probable origin but I have never been able to identify a specific moment that could be determinant on the evolution of these patterns. It has never been about a specific thing, mostly what was available. It could be cigarettes, could be benzodiacepines, pornography, weed. Tried some psychoactives years ago on my “researching” years but that seemed to actually remain as a point event and nothing more.
Thing is, I’ve been trying to overcome this for some time now and I get perplexed everytime I realize that years are just slipping by without me actually realizing it. I do not know what would work. I have had moments of less compulsion and moments of just not sleeping at night to engage in whatever behaviour I found appeticing at the moment. It seems that I always forget just what comes after the high. Getting close to the bottom but never hiting it. Now I am just at the point of exhaustion, of battling between the feelings of just wanting to get rid of these chains and already missing the experience.
I want to look back and just see this as a really bad nightmare, and so here I am trying something new to introduce a community aspect within the strategy repertoire. See you around 
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Welcome Redro! I am always one of the first to say this is the most amazing community on the planet. I saw you found the Check In thread. Stick with us. Glad you are here 
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