Hi Madeleine, welcome to the forum! Good for you for being so aware of your behaviours around alcohol and making a conscious choice to do something about it 
I know for me sobriety has been a big learning curve, working out how to live life on life’s terms. I have come to realise the things that I thought I needed alcohol for were actually already inside me. It has taken some work to tap into them and it is easier at some times than others. But it is a good feeling knowing that I don’t have to be chemically enhanced to cut loose. I now honestly can’t see the point in drinking.
I have found this forum an incredible place for advice, support and community. This thread might be helpful to you to get started >>
Read around, keep checking in and reach out whenever you need to.