Hi everyone, my name is Christine.**
I used this app a few years ago and was able to stay sober for several months — the longest I had in years. Unfortunately, I ended up falling off the wagon… and then tragedy struck.
My youngest son, Colby, was killed in an automobile accident during his school lunch break. He was only 15. Losing him shattered me. I tried everything — intensive outpatient therapy, grief counseling, support groups — but I still found myself drinking to cope.
I’m just… tired. Tired of the drinking. Tired of the hangovers. Tired of what it’s done to me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I know I can’t keep living like this.
But I also know this app helped me once before, and I truly believe it can help me again. I’m ready to try — really try — to do things differently this time. One day at a time.
Feel free to find me and Colby’s story on Facebook - Christine McCarron (Long Live Colby) I’m hoping to document my sobriety on Facebook after I’ve successfully gone at least a month or so sober. I want to confident in myself before I speak out in public about my deepest secrets and my alcoholism. Lots of my son’s friends follow my page and it’s important to me that I’m on the right track before sharing this part of my life. And I want to do this for my sweet boy Colby Scott McCarron (Forever 15) 02-01-07 to 12-15-22
I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your son Christine - what a devastating loss. I can’t imagine the agony of your pain and grief, and your crushing heartbreak.
I’m glad you’re back. No matter what happens, good or bad, drinking or using will always make it worse. Doing the work to get grounded and get going in recovery - that is sure to help.
Personally I have found podcasts and groups very helpful in addition to Talking Sober. This thread has a list of good ones:
Omg I am so SO sorry for ur loss. This is a pain like no other. I am sending u the biggest virtual hug that i can muster up
Im so glad ur back and that ur ready to give sobriety another chance. Im sure ur sweet boy is cheering u on. I know hed want his mom to live a sober and happy life. Youve been thru so much recently, so try ur best to be gentle with urself. Getting sober can bring up alot of emotion (as we tend to numb or stuff our emotions with substances). Continue to check in with us daily and take things one day at a time. Im here if u need to chat
Hi Christine and welcome back to the community. I’m sorrier than i can say for your loss, which i realize does nothing to help with the grief and pain you must go through regularly. I look forward to seeing you post around the site. Hugs.
Words cannot cover how terrible what you have been through is. My deepest condolences and awe at you still finding the strength to pick yourself up and get sober. Hope we can be of some help and support to you.
Welcome back and my condolences go out to you. I cant imagine how your loss has changed your life. Your son would be proud of you for taking the next step. You can get and stay sober but you have do the work all by yourself. I was one of those drinkers who drank not to feel. I will look up your story and look forward to your sobriety journey.
I am truly sorry for your loss and hope you can use those feelings as motivation to move forward in recovery in memory of him. It’s amazing you survived such a loss. You are a survivor! If you made it through that, you can make it through this too.
I am so SO sorry for ur loss. This is a pain like no other. I am sending u the biggest virtual hug that i can muster up 
