Man Julia i can just feelbyou beating yourself up over this. I am so sorry that you did end up drinking but so grateful that you poured the rest down the drain. That you are doing a day of selfcare.
Getting rhat head right is such a challenge love. I cant say ive conquered that task yet. It truly is one damn day at a time. You might even think an hour at a time right now.
Grateful to see you back fighting for your sobriety. Since kids are away at the moment- could you double up on the meetings? I know that the stupid temptation is everywhere - i stayed away from so many places and had a buddy system when i did have to go shopping where i would be tempted…this was for the first month or so till i got my sea legs.
We are right here love…reach out at any time. If you feel in danger you can type help in the Checking in daily to maintain focus #57 - someone is always around.
Loads of love my friend 
i do hope your run went well and your day is improving