Julia's accountability thread

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This sounds lovely my dear. Not having any plans is what we just need sometimes. Itā€™s 8:40 here and Iā€™m waking up extremely happy knowing that the evening could have also ended in the biggest drunk night with a massive hangover today. So Iā€™m just grateful to wake up hangover free. I thank God and you because me prayers helped.
Today is an extremely hot day. Imagine having Hangover then :astonished: today I woke up to my counter saying 3 days. I know itā€™s not much but Iā€™m in a good space mentally because I know that I can go furtherā€¦ 3 more days and the in laws are gone.
We donā€™t have any plans for the weekend. I just want to attend meeting and stay sober through the weekend.
You probably must be asleep now

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Lolā€¦yup - i was fast asleep (love that alowly sleep is returning).

So amazing waking up hangover free and omg - i forgot how yucky it felt to be hungover on a hot humid day. You definitely should be super proud of yourself.

Never say ā€œits not muchā€. You have come a long way and warded off many urges. That is something! You are putting in the effort on a daily basis and i can see the results. I can see you changing in your mental and emotional behavior. So grateful that you are working so diligently on your sobriety.
Hope your meeting went well - happy Saturday my friend. What else do you have planned for the weekend? You are strong enough to make this weekend sober. We are just a click away.:people_hugging:

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Alcohol is not allowed in our house. Along with porn, or drugs.

Jeez! Having relatives bring any poison into my home, my castle, can be a real threat to my sobriety.

Thinking of ways on how I would cope with someone who did that. And I really donā€™t have any good solutions other than direct confrontation to those loved ones that cross my boundaries.

I reminds me of my shame. And if I donā€™t embrace the conflict and be willing to fight WWW 3 to put my foot down and speak up for what is important to me,
then Iā€™m simply reinforcing the toxic shame within me. Which, in turn, sabotages and undermines my sex addiction recovery.

The only solution for me would be to throw down and fight for my right to have a safe home. Because I do have a right to make rules on whatā€™s permissable in my own home. Go ahead. Call me rude. Maybe theyā€™ll never talk to me again. I donā€™t care. Because I know what the alternative leads to. Which is me being a dormat, not speaking up for myself, reinforcing my toxic shame, which leads me back to relapse. They are rude by ignoring my boundaries. This shame thing was a huge nasty root that God revealed to me on this path to healing.

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Iā€™m in good place today soberwise. I just had a nasty fight with husband in the morning but that was because we are both so stressed about the new house which has to be ready in 5 weeks thatā€™s when we moveā€¦
Then the kids started to cry and in the middle of all of this were my in laws that still gave us ā€œgoodā€ advice. God, how family can be tyring sometimes. No urges today. Just tired and looking forward to m bed tonight. Itā€™s such a hot dayā€¦ And tomorrow the weekend is over again. Yaaaay :rofl:

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So true loveā€¦we all have those days / fights but know our loved ones love us. Wishing you ease in these stressful times. Moving is never easy.

So happy to hear that you are in a good sober place today - me too! We are stronger together. Im off to try some basic yoga. Wish me luck

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Good morning everyone. Going to the mountains today. Had a nice lie in today. Love my sleep

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Good morning friend
Mountains? Ooh hat sounds like a lovel way to spend Sunday

I do hope you enjoy yourself and share some pics of the scenery. Have a wonderful day Julia

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Good morning.
I got about 4 hours of sleep max last night. My son drove my car to work (He works nights). And he told me that my engine was running rough. Thatā€™s odd. It was running fine all day.

I decided to drive over there at 1am in my wifeā€™s car to check it out. Turns out, my car was leaking antifreeze and the engine was overheating.

Had to pay $273 for a late night tow (my insurance cancelled my emergency road service), and I got back home with my poor car at 3:30am.

It looks like the radiator needs to be replacedā€¦ Again. I replaced it last year. But weā€™ll see.
I wonā€™t use today.

On my way to pick up my son. Then four of us have got to get ready for a major gig in which we have to leave at 10:00 a.m.

Hoping that I can fix my car by tomorrow so I can be back on the road again

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Ugh car troubles are so taxing physically and mentally!! But you donā€™t have to use over it right? Everything will work out exactly how itā€™s supposed to. Even if we donā€™t understand how or when. I try to pause when agitated and pray for guidance and peace.

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Youā€™re probably back from the mountains by now. I swear I have to come visit you!! We have no mountains here and I always feel peace when I am in mountains. Itā€™s 12pm and I have an afternoon/evening filled with recovery plans. I love Sundays for that. :blush: Of course itā€™s brutally hot out here so mostly staying inside today. I made it last night without eating the chocolate cake that found its way to my kitchen. Prayed for strength to make wise food choices today and acknowledged my powerlessness over it all. Thereā€™s a good chance Iā€™ll check in here later tonight too!

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Hey Cristel well done you strong lady!!! Love you lots

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Another sober week ahead. Have a good start you lovely people. Today Iā€™m damn tired. But happy

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Happy Monday Julia
Startin off sober is an amazing way to start the week.
Hopefully youll gain a pep in your step or at least get a chance to rest today to ward off the tiredness.

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My in laws are leaving today. Iā€™m relieved but I didnā€™t make it to stay sober the whole time. So I had to reset. I need them to go. I need the alcohol out of my house. I need to do my meeting at lunch time today. I know exactly what I Need to do and what I donā€™t need aroundā€¦
I just want to be honest with you guys because I hate lying. It felt such a great achievement having stayed sober on the work event. But then yesterday was thereā€¦
Thank you guys for always always being there :heart::kissing_heart::kissing_heart:

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Today is a new day. Never give up

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Thank goodness that you will get your sanctuary back. It is super hard to stay sober with lifes stresses when your doc is so easily available (in your home) and those around you are all drinking and would like you to join.
I do rgis you should be proud of your successes and grateful to have learned what you need to do and what kind of environment is needed for your sobriety.
Its a new day and you are sober today and you have a meeting to attend. Have a wonderful day Julia

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Love you all so much! I did do my meeting and I shared and was honest about what happened. I can not look the people in their eyes and just keep quiet. I need to talk about it otherwise itā€™s not real and I just keep betraying myself. Iā€™m glad I have this sober network. Thank God I will get some inner peace tonight.

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I hope everyoneā€™s day is going well. Thank you each and everyone who always stops by and writes something. It means a lot to me

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I understand completely but its your shame thats not allowing you to make eye contact and thats robbing you from making connections. Shane/ guilt have no place in recovery. So grateful that you are talking honestly about it - secrets fester and rot you from the inside. You are doing everything right and gaining strength. Heres to another day fighting for another addiction free day :muscle:

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