Yes this 100%! We have to talk about it, be honest about it and examine what happened. Avoiding it and keeping things hidden is not the answer. Just don’t give up Julia. We’re not giving up on you. You are so worth fighting for! 
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Good morning everyone. I’m grateful today to be able to start again. Sober. No in laws anymore at home. No alcohol anymore in front of me every night… I’m grateful to be able to be myself at home again.
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I’m really proud of you for not giving up. Here’s to day one Julia. 
Glad to hear your in laws are gone and you have your safe space back.
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Good morning 
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Good morning / afternoon Julia
Happy Wednesday and thrilled that you now have your safe haven back.
What did you have planned for today?
Here is to another addiction free day for both of us!
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I had my noon meeting. Love to see all the people. Shared quickly. Was thinking of running today but it’s too hot. I went yesterday for a run and it felt so good although it is too hot. Now dinner and off to bed with the kids.
What have you all planned for today?
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Sounds like a lovely day. Yeah - i cant function in the heat these days.
Getting some errands funished and doing a litte work tgen going to veg for the rest of the day (hopefully) 
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Sounds very good too! I love knowing I don’t have to drink. And going to bed sober having a good night’s sober sleep. Here is to another sober day my dear!
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Good morning, had a good night’s sober sleep. But woke up to a horrible drinking dream. Must have had this in the morning just when my alarm went off… I was super grateful to wake up sober today. Felt so ashamed in the dream… Horrible feeling.
Now here’s to another sober day my sober lovely friends
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Hey Julia - hows your day going so far? Sorry about the dream but so grateful that the reality was sober and hangover free. You should only have a proud feeling of being addiction free for another day!
I am also 1 more day free from addictions and hope to keep going today with this proud feeling.
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Good morning everyone 
I feel like a complete failure. Attending meetings during the day and drinking at night. WTF? i don’t get the grip anymore. I can’t stay sober. Why… ??? Why??? Why??? I don’t come here. I don’t talk to you guys. I don’t get this feeling in me that I really want to stay sober. I fought so much for it the last weeks when my in laws were here… FUCK. I hate myself for this
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Before my in laws came I had the house alcohol free. There was nothing at home. Now it’s still full of all their shit that they have left behind. I need to get rid of it. NOW. OR OTHERWISE THIS NEVER STOPS.
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I think hating yourself is not helpful. It will keep you in the addictive cycle longer. Coming here and going to meetings, addressing you thoughts and your feelings will help you, as you already do. Only few achieved sobriety at first try I think.
What do you think drinking still holds for you?
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Throw it AWAY!
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Oh Julia, You’re not a failure! You have an illness. You wouldn’t call a diabetic who has a day of eating sweets a failure. Remember…we are not bad people trying to do good, we are sick people trying to get well.
Throw out all that alcohol. You do not need the temptation in your home that’s supposed to be your safe place. Sending hugs!
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Hey Julia - please do not speak negatively towards yourself- you are not a failure! The guilt, shame and feelings of failure are what create the perfect environment for us to continue using our DOC. As mentioned here alcoholism is a disease / a sickness and you are doing an amazing job in fighting to gain control over it. Going to meetings, checking in here daily and working on changing up your daily routines. I am so very proud of you.
You slipped - okay - it happens. First things first - get rid of the remaining alcohol in the house.
Give yourself a huge hug for continuing to show up for yourself.
Will you be able to get to a meeting today. With the weekend here - what are your plans? Do know we are just a click away. I wish you strength my friend - you have it in you to keep strong. Are you into reading? - I have found that “Quit Like A Woman by Holly Whitaker” is an amazing easy read that re-affirms my need to stay sober.
Have an absolutely kick ass sober day! Happy Friday and remember to love yourself!
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Thank you everyone. I just threw away the leftovers. Gone. Thank God! Now off to kindergarten little farewell for my youngest. He is starting school in September. I will do an online meeting tonight. No social things planned on the weekend which is so important for my sobriety. Yes sober Friday is the best. Sober weekend ahead. Maybe go once for a hike/walk in the mountain or bicycle ride…
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Came from this beautiful farewell of the kindergarten. They made a speech for every kid. Very emotional and I had to cry a bit. My little one so big already. Came home. Showered and now chilling in bed and soon off to sleep. I’m so tired. Grateful to go to bed sober tonight
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Sounds like a lovely day my friend 0 grateful you were able to complete is sober.
I don’t have kids but i can imagine the vast emotions being felt seeing them grow up so fast.
Much love - sure you are fast asleep now - have a lovely start to your Saturday! 
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I did this. Going to meetings practically every day, but still acting out in between. Don’t lose hope. Keep learning.
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