Lying in bed with my youngest son. The other is sleeping over at his best friend’s place an hour away from our house. Unfortunately his family moved away a year ago. He just video called me and cried because he misses me. He asked if I can pick him up if needed. I’m so proud to say yes yes yes if you need me to pick you up because I’m sober and I can drive…God this is freedom. I’m loving it! Apparently he calmed down the mom just wrote me and I’m in bed now. Leaving my phone on for the night…
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Good morning everyone. Had an uninterrupted sleep of almost 8 hours. God is it wonderful to have a sober sleep. But: I dreamed that I drank and this was so horrible. The feeling, the shame, the guilt. I’m so glad I woke up!!!
Didn’t get a phone call from my friend about my older son. So he made it:heart_eyes:. Now enjoying Saturday morning quietness. Younger son still sleeping. I will make a coffee now. 10am is the women’s AA meeting which I need to go to. Life is good. Sober. Wish you all a great sober day 
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Good morning Julia
Love that you were able to sleep through the night. Those drinking nightmares are the worst but in a way remind us why we are sober.
Hope your 10am meeting went well.
You are doingva fantastic job! 
keep it up and have yourself a wonderful Saturday.
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Of course your subconscious self is going to reach out for alcohol every weekend. Of course, you’re going to have using dreams. But your subconscious addict is wrong. And you chose to ignore it. Congratulations! Happy sober Saturday!
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Made the Saturday sober. Had a wonderful women’s meeting and a good Sober day all in all. I’m so so extremely grateful to go to bed sober. Good night
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Good afternoon/ early evening. Also made the Sunday sober. Yaaay I’m super tired today. Just want to sleep and looking forward to bed and netflix. Tonight I have again 1 week 
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Damn girl…you ate absolutely killing it! Sometimes a relaxing day/ evening is exactly whats needed…do hope you enjoy your netflix night and a huge congrats to 1 week (making it through the weekend and just being an amazingly strong woman! Keep up the amazing work 
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Happy Happy Monday 
Super duper sober Monday!
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Yay! Congrats on a full week Julia. 
It makes me happy to see you’ve never given up.
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You guys are so so sweet. Thank you! Today I had cravings but I managed to tell them to fuck off. Did 2 meetings online. And had so much work. God it’s stressful. Then I was yelling at my kids at night and my youngest started crying I felt so sorry at night and I hugged him when I brought him to bed and told him how sorry I am! Fuck I need to control my anger and not let it out on him. He is only a small kid. I get so impatient when I’m stressed and he just daydreams the whole day which is actually so cute and so precious but I rush him through the day because my day is so stressful 
I feel bad and sad about this tonight. Moving will be a stressful thing next month and it scares me and freaks me out not having time for my kids…
Good night everyone. Going to bed sober at least
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Yeah to anothet sober day my friend and a huge congrats on telling those stupid urges to fuck off. Im seeing you get stronger, healthier and happier by the day. Yes the urgs keep coming and your body is on edge but with your tools you are able to handle these with ease and your body will adjust in time. I was a total mess at the beginning and found meditating very helpful. Your kuds know you love them. Wishing you the best here love - do know that drinking would only lower your patience and tolerance for chaos.
Moving can be anxiety central for anyone - so much crazier with kids present. Try not to think too far ahead and get wrapped up in anxiety.
Much love my friend 
…together we are stronger…
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Thank you you are so sweet. Hope you are doing well? How is everything? You are so active on here. Amazing
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Feeling anxious today. My parents in laws are coming and this seriously threatens my sobriety. They drink a lot. 2019 when we visited them I stopped drinking for 6 months and told them. They found it strange but accepted it… I want to tell them today too. Then again I even thought ah why don’t I just drink with them? But no!!! Taking it out here helps me to stay accountable. I love them. They are so sweet with the kids and my kids love them too. I just need to distance myself from the alcohol…
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you are doing so well and don’t give in to this mentality - it has occurred to us all and we know that we are not able to moderate and falling backwards makes it harder to get back on track. Have your own drinks available and ready (even if it is just water - hopefully flavored water or soda or whatever) –
Sending you much strength my friend -it’s hard dealing with these situations so early on in our sobriety journey but do know it is possible to stay the course and come out sober!
Feel free to log on here and talk it out if you need to – we are here for you!
Im doing ok today - sleep deprived but feel good as i was able to go out with my parents, brother and my cousins (visiting from England) to celebrate my moms bday - i was unable to eat anything because of my restricted diet but it was nice to enjoy my black coffee and their amazing company. I am exhausted now from socializing and about to catch up here. Yes - i am very active here (lol) - it is my sanity and escape…
Much love my friend -wishing you the best sober Tuesday ever!
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Thank you so so so much you beautiful person
I just bought my favourite juice that my kids love too. So I will drink with them. And I will tell them that I’m not drinking. They will look weird at me but then just keep on doing their thing. Thank you thank you. I think you saved me… I will say good night sober Tonight!
It sounds lovely your family all together. So nice to have family 
hope you have a relaxing rest of the day
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oh this is so great to hear. Yeah, some do look at us weird for a second but then move on which is good – we only have this one life and this one body to take care of and can’t get bogged down with other peoples opinions. Much love to you too my friend - this is a team effort and we make each other stronger! Best is to reach out here when you feel yourself falling! You are doing all the hard work my friend - stay strong.
I am grateful for my lovely family — they have been super supportive. I am now relaxing for sure - the afternoon just started here so still enjoying the sunshine… have a lovely sober evening my friend
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I’m in bed now. Safe. We had dinner and they are still sitting downstairs. I had to bring the kids to bed and just go to bed too… Love having kids and always being busy with them 
no-one asked me about the drinking so I didn’t say anything. I just don’t like having alcohol in the house now. But it’s theirs.
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Oh that is lovely to hear. So very proud of you!
Hopefully they will take it with them when they leave or u can dump it then.
Showing up for yourself and protecting your sobriety! Thats what its all about. Have a lovely sober slumber my dear friend 
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I respect your honesty and accountability
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Keeping myself busy the first 15 days was crucial for me. You handle the week well maybe consider volunteering or getting a part-time gig on the weekends Helping others is rewarding and it distracts from personal problems 
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