Hi Kayla welcome to Talking Sober 
What a heartbreaking situation 
In addiction we give up everything (including our families) for one thing (our addiction). In recovery, we give up one thing (addiction), and in return we get everything we need.
For me what helped was connecting with other people who knew about addiction recovery, and learning from them. I did an outpatient rehab and I joined a sobriety group (there’s a good list of groups here: Resources for our recovery). With time and effort, one day at a time, I learned to live (and grow!) without my addiction.
You can learn to live a healthy life (which means generally healthy and also addiction-free). Reach out to people who can teach you. Don’t give up.
Keep posting here on Talking Sober. Don’t be alone - you are never alone.