TO DECOMPRESS, I’D LIKE TO DEDICATE MORE TIME TO ________
Afternoon & evening mindfulness. I’m pretty good at starting my day out with yoga/stretching, meditation, and journaling. I would like to add this into later parts of my day as well to check in with myself and not hold onto stresses and negative thoughts through the day.
I completely understood your post and since I’ve become aware accepted and surrendered my voice too and the words I use are beginning to be shaped more for good and not my old selfish self centered controlling ways. I need to continue to work on this minute by minute tho and everyday.
To exercise. It has always been something good for me and something that makes me feel strong and empowered. But I do struggle with doing it sometimes.
WRITE A LETTER TO SOMEONE WHO BULLIED YOU IN THE PAST. WHAT WOULD YOU WANT THEM TO KNOW?
This one was weird for me. I thought initially that I had never been bullied so I left it open through the day — after reflecting I realized a lot of situations that I hadn’t considered bullying in the past actually were and had a bigger affect on me than I remembered. Instead of a letter I made it more a list of forgotten memories.
WHAT DOES SELF-LOVE MEAN TO ME?
WHAT DOES IT NOT MEAN? (GET SPECIFIC)
I previously answered this one on March 03 and I am amazed going back even just two months and seeing how my answer is growing and my perception of self love is expanding.
(Post Edited May 12th to add my response)
Self love is honoring my own thoughts and feelings — knowing that when they persist it’s usually for a reason. When they start nagging at me, self love is taking a closer look at, potentially acting on or just knowing where it’s coming from, and that if I try to push these things down it is usually something I regret and will instead turn to self loathing.
Self love is standing up for myself and not taking things to heart. It’s knowing that not everyone truly sees or understands me — but loving and seeing myself I can build my own worth on what I know to be true instead of others misconceptions.
Self love is doing things for me because I know they will better me and make me feel good, not because of how others view me, societal expectations, or performative bs.
I actually had to look up the definition of a bully. Which is “a person who habitually seeks to harm or intimidate those whom they perceive as vulnerable”.
I know I was bullied in junior high (before I got into drugs). I don’t recall who it was tho as it’s been awhile lol but I do remember getting bullied by other kids in school due to the clothes I wore. But I wouldn’t really bother writing a letter to any of them.
My grandma on my mom’s side, she was a bully. Funny enough I would’ve never called her that prior to thinking about this, but she bullied me for how much I weighed (would do it in public even), and comment during dinners about the amount of food I ate. I could never truly be myself around her. I may write a letter actually about this
My ex was abusive and definitly a bully to an extent ( I think). But I’ve pretty much dealt with this situation I think.
You know… now that I think about it… I’d probably write a letter to myself. I’m a bigger bully to myself than I think anyone else has ever been to me. Sad really but I’m working on changing that
I love that you looked up and included the definition of bully. It really changes the perspective for me of what I consider bullying and how much passes under our radar.
IN THE NEXT TEN YEARS, I WOULD LIKE TO LEARN ________.
woodworking/carving
full bike maintenance
sourdough
Danish language/finish lessons
how to care for chickens
to self publish a book
to sew my own clothes
more advanced yoga
how best to care for myself
(relearn) skateboarding
foraging
to say “fuck you” to fear & insecurity
to run my own business
to build community
Hey Jess Rather than overwhelm myself by trying to catch up on all I missed, I’m just gonna start from here.
I was bullied by my ex-husband, but I don’t think I would spend any time writing him a letter… even one I wouldn’t send. But I do know I would tell him the abuse he put me and my kids through stayed with us for only a short time, because we’re strong, and we’ve worked through his shit together. I would tell him we’re thriving and close-knit, for all that he tried to tear us down and apart. But more than anything, I don’t care one way or another if he knew these things, because he simply isn’t worth it.
Growing up I was taught that I came last, so self-love is a pretty recent practice for me. It means giving myself grace when I’m feeling worthless; writing things down to help me understand and work through them better; meditating when I want clarity, relaxation, and peace of mind; eating healthy foods to nourish my body; playing outside and having fun to improve my mood; practicing face yoga moves to help me feel better about my appearance. It’s funny to me that I can actually think of many more ways to love myself, but I’ll stop here.
For me, self-love does not mean eating junk food as a treat for having a bad day. It doesn’t mean feeling smug or justified when I feel my truth is stronger or more meaningful than another’s. Self-love doesn’t mean piling up in the bed all day, because I’m feeling low. Self-love doesn’t mean rewarding myself with alcohol because I’m so-many-days-months-years sober.
Self-love is knowing and accepting that I will always be a work in progress.
Definitely don’t worry about catching up! I’m a bit behind posting them as it is. They’re here and not going anywhere if you ever decide to go back. It’s all whatever pace suits your own self love journey and I’m just happy to have you here. I love that others choose to pop in here and share their journey and vulnerability.
My favorite thing about my age today is knowing that if I stay sober and healthy I can live a long life still. In active addiction I was convinced I wouldn’t make it to 40, but now I can appreciate that I’m making better decisions for myself, in how I live, and that I get to live. I have given myself time to pursue all the things I’m passionate about without feeling the need to subscribe to hustle culture and make it all happen right now. I can enjoy each day and the small moments so much more and better prioritize what actually needs to be done now.
HOW CAN YOU BE MORE APPRECIATIVE OF ALL YOUR BODY IS DOING TO KEEP YOU ALIVE?
*Edited May 27 to include my response
I can appreciate my body by taking care of it
I can take a hot shower or a cold shower — not because I need to get clean but just because I feel like it
I can do more yoga & stretching in a less official way, just moving my body to feel connected to it — on the mat, a bare floor, a grassy field, the chair of a waiting room, or wherever I am
I can let my body experience the fullness of life without mind altering substances or the avoidance & over stimulation of screens and social media
I can rest
I can meditate more often to stay grounded and present within my body
PICK SOMEONE YOU HAVE A CONFLICT WITH RIGHT NOW. FOR A MOMENT, FORGET THE ISSUES YOU HAVE WITH THEM AND WRITE ABOUT WHY THEY DESERVE LOVE AND KINDNESS.
*Edited May 27 to include my response
Generic answer: Every human, flawed as we may be, deserves love and kindness. Simply as we are, because we exist, we deserve these things.
More specific answer to the person I had in mind:
You are trying to better yourself. You are trying to create art to express yourself & to share with others that can relate so they feel less alone. Your core values are good. When you start getting lost on your way you are fairly open minded, aware, and willing to try to change. You are a supportive friend that wants to help — you might not always know how best to do that, you might burn yourself out in the process, but I love how much you show that you care. I know you are not malicious and you didn’t mean any harm.