Marcus, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I can feel your pain. 
I’m proud of you for staying strong with all you’re dealing with. 90 days is an awesome accomplishment! I know how much you must miss your boys, and I can also see the compassion you have for your wife. 
Warm welcome to the community. I find it helpful to read the shares from others. Very often, you find help and hope in them. Sending you strength and a big hug. 
Edit: You’re never alone when you’re a part of this community. Stick around