I don’t even know you but I love you.
“I did this to myself” - I felt that in my bones.
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Appreciate it! 
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I know it’s difficult, I believe in you 
Our addictions tell us it is ok, our minds try to trick us.
I went in an got blood work done to see where my levels are. I’m still wanting to get an egd and liver scan as well too
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All the testing in the world doesn’t matter unless you are both willing to quit drinking.
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Hi 
Negotiating with yourself, I can promise you are not doing anything that most of us here haven’t done ourselves and still do all the time in our minds, but we can not give these thoughts time to grow.
Unfortunately the thing you don’t have is time. With your condition you don’t have time to make mistakes.
I really feel for you your so young and we all know this addiction is not easy to handle but it can be done.
I can’t stop thinking about you, and worrying for you 
Lots of us here have been were your are, we know it isn’t easy for you and it’s also not your fault either. This disease kills and I’m really scared for you even though I don’t know you I care so very much, and so do others here.
I think it’s brilliant you came here and let out your thought process, and I hope that some of the replies you got have helped to make you see you matter and that you can’t drink literally to try to save your life.
It’s hard to hear so much advice from people all in one go but sometimes it’s what we need to wake us up or push us out of disillusioned thinking that we can have one because if we could none of us would be here for help.
As I said we all go through this, it’s just extremely sad that your so young and your dont have the time to make mistakes for the sake of your life.
I really hope you stay in the community you will see that people mostly try to help from a good caring placealthough it’s not always what we want to hear, it is coming from people that understand alcoholism, they may be explaining from their own experiences and none of our stories are pretty.
I really hope your okay, may I suggest going to some AA meetings and meeting face to face with some people to get some extra support and please stay here too.
Without the support here I wouldn’t be sober today. And I didn’t like every bit of advice especially in the beginning but today I’m thankful that it provoked me to see what I couldn’t see about my Alcoholism, and I still have alot to learn.
I still to this day tell myself Maybe one day, maybe the summer etc … so you aren’t alone with this thinking I promise you. Just Please don’t act on it though. We can’t act on these thoughts. " One Day At A Time"
You are loved, you are cared about, you are thought of by many and I am here for you okay 
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