Yo, I’m one of those kids who’s just been dealt a bad hand. 
Born into bad luck, raised by my single mom and my grandparents. I had to move in with my gran when I was super young. It wasn’t the easiest, but my grandparents showed me love in their own way. 
But then, 3 years ago… I lost my gran. That hit me HARD. 
And that’s when I got introduced to weed. Something I thought I’d never do, but here I am. The first hit, and I’ve never been able to shake it off. 
Now, here’s the heartbreaking part: it took away my clarity. It made me lose everything, including the person I loved for 6 years. My relationship? Gone. The one thing that was my anchor, and I just let it slip through my fingers. 
And now? I’m struggling. My mom is almost about to disown me because of the mess I’ve made. I’m drowning in this haze, and all I want is to quit. But every day it’s harder than the last. 
I’m broke. I can barely feed myself, and the shame is eating me alive. I never thought I’d end up here, stuck, confused, and lost.
Please, if you’re reading this, I’m asking for help. I don’t want to lose myself. I don’t want to keep going down this dark path. I’m trying… but I need strength. 
#HelpMe #LostButFighting #TryingToFindMyWay
Welcome to Talking Sober Kelvin. This place and the people here for me have made the difference between failures in the past and success now. We’re in this together here. We’re not alone and as the opposite of addiction is connection, that’s a huge thing.
And thanks for sharing your story. That’s a good begin friend, sharing. I hope you take some time to look around here. So much knowledge to gain, on addiction, on how to fight it, on recovery. So much shared experience and experiences. So much support. Read, share, support and get supported.
Here’s hoping to see more from you. Wishing you all success. Love from this weed and booze addict who took over 40 years to quit. It’s never too late friend. We can build a new life from the rubble. Glad you’re here. 
Welcome to the forum
If you have any weed left, dispose of it and all of your paraphernalia. If you get it from dealers, block and delete their numbers. Make it as hard as possible for you to use again.
I can hear your desperation and that’s a good place to start.
Read around on here, there’s so many of us who’ve been where you are, who are sharing their experiences, strength, and hope.
You can do this, and it does get easier if you work on your recovery daily.
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Welcome Kelvin. I think a lot of people here on Talking Sober have been exactly where you are now. It’s no picnic, that’s for sure.
The good news is it sounds like you want to grow out of this and change your habits, become a person of respect: respect for yourself, and respect for others.
It is possible.
There’s lots of different paths people have followed to live sober and you’ll find them by reading around here. For me I started at an outpatient addiction recovery clinic. If you are in the USA you can find them at www.FindTreatment.gov
I still have counselling with a therapist at that clinic. I have added other tools to my sober kit: I attend a twelve-step recovery meeting every week and have made friends there, who I call daily. There are many groups that can be joined, some twelve-step and some with other methods, but what they all have in common is they connect you with other people in recovery. You can find a list of those groups, together with a list of books and podcasts, here: Resources for our recovery
Welcome to Talking Sober!
@Kelvin I read your post. I was touched. I am struggling myself but here is my poor hand and my prayers. Please don’t give up in this battle, I you want you aren’t alone
Hey @Kelvin how are you doing/ feeling now? 🩷:purple_heart:
you can do this! Just take a deep breath and try not to think too much about the past or the present. Easier said then done I know. Is there something positive and tangible you can do today to help make yourself feel better? A nice warm shower or bath, a tea, a favourite book or movie, a walk outside? Do you have a recovery plan? Thinking of you. Hang in there it will get better.