That is a great quote!! I keep coming back and trying again, knowing that moment will occur when it will click. When I will hear or feel something that makes THE difference. And for today, all I know is I didn’t drink. And that is a good day.
@Nick247! Yup, pretty disgusting stuff! But not today, my friend, not today. You see - most days I don’t have cravings. Most days I honestly DON’T want to drink. But then >>BAM<< the feeling hits me and I buy wine and sneak and drink it and hate myself. But I didn’t do that today and am really happy. Heading to bed in a little while and will sleep well. Well, unless the cat decides to alk on my head. I know what you mean about your heart in your head. I had that so bad the other night I almost got up and took my blood pressure. But then I thought “I don’t want to know!!”
Very happy to have another sober friend to journey with.
You speak out of my Heart. I’m the same, I don’t have cravings everyday (of course the days after heavy drinking) but when I decide to drink, it works just for a couple days or weeks, until I pass out and black out. And the same shit starts all over again.
Problems with my family etc.
I can’t even be mad at my wife for hating me after 17 years relationship. I’m also fed up of my shit, always the same excuses, always the same promises. But then boom I’m back, totally drunk, passed out.
That’s what I love about y’all, nobody judges me. You’re all so kind and encouraging!
I need to prove my family that I’m stronger.
Meanwhile I’m on nightshift and my coworkers are drinking. My mind is playing tricks on me but I need to stay focused even if it’s very hard because my head is turning about the past. I’ll make it until the end of my shift! Sober!!
Well, at least I can say I hadn’t a drink at work since 1 1/2 years and I’m proud. The whole alcohol addiction started at work because it’s totally normal to drink at nightshift even if I know that it’s not normal but sometimes it’s the environment that drags you down.
@Nick247…a job where people drink?? Now, that is a challenge.
I’m to the point where I can’t have easy access to liquor. None at my house. My SO of 2.5 years has never been a drinker. I dont go to bars. My thing is sneaky drinking in the closet. Seriously! Totally by myself to catch a buzz. Makes zero sense.
You are right…no judging here. A group of people who get it. I post sometimes with the purpose being that someone who understands will read it. Responses are the icing on the cake. But, oh, to be understood!
You can be stronger. You can resist. My feeling is this…if you try 100 times and fail…if you don’t keep trying you will still fail…coming back and trying again gives you a chance to succeed.
Interestingly, just as your post came up, my timer just turned to 3 days completed. I would like to say that I rejoiced over that, but the first thing that came to my mind was “big deal”. Need to work on my self talk!!
Monday was a long one for me too, but I accomplished a lot and I did clear minded! Sounds like your day was productive and ended AF! I’m glad…I hope the evening treats you well my friend!
@Mbwoman yea seriously, it’s a very Hard challenge, every day, each day. And it’s not like we working in a Bar etc.
I work in the steel industry and it’s totally common to drink on nightshift. Like a bullshit tradition that makes no sense but most still celebrate it.
And it’s very risky too, you can easily fall into a machine and die in the worst case.
My last time drunk at work was in Nov,16, 2019, I even used some cocaine on that day because I was so drunk and thought I’d need some coke to get “sober” & clear. I’ll never forget that day. I even talked a lot of bs to my supervisor that day and didn’t even realized.
If you check my profile you can see that I’ve registered on Nov. 20, 2019.
This weekend started a lot of drama and I embarrassed myself in front of many friends & my family.
I am starting Day 5. Feeling great. At the gym at 5:30 (yes, a.m.). Enjoying a spirited game of tug of war with our 2 year old, 70 pound Golden Retriever. All was well until he bashed my nose with his really hard head. I saw stars!! Then laughed and asked him if he was OK. He wagged his big, floppy tail in confirmation. Onward!
Good morning, I reset on sunday, the first sunday in a long time I have not drank. 3 days in and this group has gave me the motivation to better my life with out alcohol. Stay strong!