Checking in after a bad relapse. They are all bad at this stage of my alcoholism. Getting ready to make some major decisions with the help of family, sober community and friends, and my therapist. I am blessed to have this support. Will send prayers for all of those struggling.
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@peegeeā¦no guaranteesā¦that I know. But enough slips for me. I really know I can do this. And I will!! You, too! I am wrapping my head totally around the truth that staying sober is my choice.
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I am so glad you have people to help you!! Please let us know what you decide!!
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@Nick247ā¦Hope you are still holding on to those sober days. Your job sounds dangerous without alcohol!! Something tells me more than a few of your coworkers have drinking problems.
I hope you have done embarrassing drunk stuff for the last time!!
Hang in there!!
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Thank you so much for caring 
Indeed itās dangerous and weāre dumb enough to risk it even more. The root of drinking in our occupational field goes deep. 20-30 years ago it was even a bigger problem because everybody was drinking, nowadays itās just a few who canāt cut it.
Yes alcohol is a big problem and everyone who drinks at work has a problem but theyāre not honest to themselves and donāt change anything!
But Iām better 
Iām at work right now, Iād lie if Iād say that Iām fine.
Anxiety, sweaty palms, high pulse and blood pressure and I donāt sleep more than 4 hrs a day makes me feel like a wreck!
But Iām 5 days off alcohol almost 5 off weed and 7 days off coke! Thatās the good part!!
My wife is talking to me again on a normal basis. Thatās even better! But sheās still pissed. But Iām not mad at her, she had so much drama just because of me.
How are you? @Mbwoman
How was your day??
Blessings
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Itās a night a bowl and usually have beers but tonight it is just the bowling! Success! Thank you!
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Sober bowling?? Who knew how fun it could be?
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@Nick247ā¦congrats on giving up multiple poisons. I had a good day. Did my 9-5 just fine. Iām a university administrator. SO had to help his daughter with some things so I brought the dog for a walk, made a grilled cheese, checked on my online students (side hustle as an adjunct faculty member) and will crash soon. No cravingsā¦but thatās my norm. Any time after 30 days I get antsy. Soā¦extra vigilant in April. 
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Sounds like you had a great day! I love grilled cheese lol
Keep it up! 
I know the 30+ day feeling and cravings. Itās in my head like, you got the 30 days come get a drink to celebrate it, how ironically dumb can I be. The very 1st few days Iām mentally overwhelmed from the sober feelings and hyper motivated. Just need to keep this feeling going!
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Thank you @Nick247.
This is a first for me. 
The threads have definately given me just that.
My day has been good, the end of the week is my real challenge. But I know this forum will give me the strength to get through.
How was your day?
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Good for you. How are you doing now?
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hej you all!
I check in, too. My sober date is today.
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Thank you!
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Of course it will give you the power @Anneb 
We gonna make it together to the end of the weekšŖ
My day was good, thanks. I made a lil trip with my bicycle and it felt great and finally after 3 months lock down I was able to visit a barbershop again because they were all closed. I feel like a human being again and not like a yeti 
Physically, I feel weird, still some anxiety, headache & its so cold also high pulse and weird feelings. Sometimes Iāve a kind of natural high feeling. I feel very nervous, but mentally the sobriety is giving me power! I feel strong in my mind but weak in my body.
Bless yāall
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Day 4 today, been having a bit of anxiety and insomnia the last two nights. But other than that feeling good and strong. Fridays are usually my biggest problem, where I lose control. I have imagined how proud I will feel of myself on Monday when I make it through a sober weekend 
. I know that feeling will keep me strong.
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Good for you. Of all the problems I faceā¦either real or imaginedā¦feeling like a yeti isnāt one of them. Thankfully! 
I have been getting weird feelings, too. It has been going on for months. Next time I visit my doctor I am going to mention it. Itās like Iām over-sensitive to the startle reflex. Hard to explain. But Iām sure it involves my body trying to get back to normal.
Off to face the last work day of the week. Oh joy!
Have a sober Friday!
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@Annebā¦yeah, think thatās normal. Congrats on Day 4. Each day is better, isnāt it? What are you doing today to avoid drinking? Got a plan?
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@Mbwoman thanks so much. Yes it definately is. I had a small auto pilot like thought on my drive home but was able to dismiss it rather quickly. I have declined invites for the famous āone drinkā lol. So far so good. I am also going to do something with my mom this evening, then rest. Tomorrow I have a mountain load of work to catch up onā¦all the work I procrastinate coz I am always feeling sick and so tired half the week from binge drinking. 
. How do you usually keep busy?
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I had the same feeling, almost like I was jumping out of my skin at the smallest things or even with some of my thoughts. I also had those horrible hypnic jerks before falling asleep, and in the first couple weeks it was awful and kept me from sleeping well. Itās residual anxiety and chemical/hormonal imbalances, I believe, and I think itās normal when youāre body is finding itās equilibrium after becoming sober. I think around a month sober I felt it ease up. It gets better! Hereās what I read about those hypnic jerks:
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