Hello all, I’m new here. I’ve been a Marijuana addict for about ten years now. I suffer from severe anxiety and panic attacks, which is the reason I started smoking. I remember my first joint, and the feeling it brought. I had no anxiety and panic was the furthest thing from my mind. Then I went on to try different things, just about everything except for a syringe in my arm.
Now I only smoke though. Or smoked. A lot of these years are completely gone to me, so many memories lost…
I’ve been arrested before, but I’ve managed to hide it from all of my employers, until now.
Last week I had to do a drug test, and of course it was positive. Just found out today, and my boss called me in. I could feel the panic slowly creeping up on me, but I held it in.
Now I’m not allowed to come back to work until I am clean, and I’ve gone through rehab.
I have tried to quit several times, but I’ve never managed to. But then on the other hand, I was never open with it… I really want to quit this time, and with the support from you guys n gals I have high hopes =)
Sorry for the wall of text, I really needed to get it of my chest.
Anyone else with a similar story that they want to share?