At a young age of 7 or 8, I developed a strong urge to prone masturbation. I was such a hyper kid. I would find an interest in womens lingerie and for some reason would rub my private parts to the lingerie page of a clothing catalogue. I think I may have done this almost everyday until the age of 9 where I was able to ejaculate. But this would carry on all the way into my 20s.
I just feel alot of guilt, especially starting at that age and fear I have damaged my health.
Has anyone else had this same experience as a kid?
My story is not too dissimilar. I am not entirely sure of what age I was, but I do know it was around 2nd or 3rd grade that I developed a methid of masturbation. I enjoyed it purely for the orgasm that I would achieve. I was heavily shamed for my activity and I was forced into hiding my sexual exploration. I have struggled with a porn and orgasm addiction since about the 8th grade, which is when porn was introduced to me. You are certainly not alone.
Definitely check out the mentioned PMO thread - this is a very common theme. Best of luck! If nothing else, I highly recommend taking a break for at least a week - try and note how that goes and what your experiences are, for your future self.
