It’s so hard when we start this journey. For me, I had done damage and it wasn’t the first time I said I was done drinking. Plus my bf at the time lost his drinking buddy and that was the only time we could connect. It was a lot, and it was a big effing mess. My life was truly unmanageable and completely unsustainable as it was. It took people a LONG time to realize I was seriously changing my life. They had to see it to believe it. By the time I was able to get to my amends, people started to see a change within me already so they knew at that point things were serious for me.
AA and working the steps with a sponsor totally changed everything for me for the better. I just need to keep showing up and doing the work. Today is always the most important day and I will do whatever it takes to end my day sober. One day or even one minute or hour at a time is all we have to keep staying sober in. You’ve got a few days in so I know you can do it again today. I’m so glad you’re here and taking these steps toward a new life! It works if we work it. 
Feel free to join us on the big book reading thread if that would be helpful for you. You don’t need the book, I post the chapters every Wednesday-we are stil on the first reading.