Such a good time to be connecting with nature - the beauty around us and within us, the cycle of change, rebirth and renewal that is present in everything 
You are blessed with emotional realisations these days. It’s strenuous. But it means you are coming into your truth. I’m happy for you 
I know you can delve into it. And I hope you’re ok now. X
I spoke about this in a recent check in Andre. While I was working through my resentments I figured out that the biggest resentment I held was towards myself. I resented myself for relapsing, for allowing that relapse to last 12 years, for ruining my marriage, for putting my daughter at risk, for everything. I was so angry inside, at myself, that everyone around me got the worst part of me. Once I started to forgive myself I was able to heal. I hope you can forgive yourself. We all do foolish things when we are in active addiction, things we wouldn’t dream of doing otherwise. They do not define who we are… our addictive behaviors, our mental health struggles none of it defines who we are at our core. Allowing yourself to “break” like you say, to cry and find some release of emotion… I didn’t get that gift until I was 15 months sober so if it doesn’t happen right away don’t give up on trying. Sending lots of compassion your way. 
Great one !!!
