Woof. Yeah I mean. It’s fine to say but in reality how? I need exact instructions. And no one’s been able to offer me anything better than “you just do it”
All I know is I can’t do it alone. I am just starting therapy and learning how important identifying, accepting, and integrating emotions and trauma responses is going to be for me and how the help of a professional to guide me through this is so important, too. Some things I can get extra support from my loved ones with and some of it I may not be able to. At least not right away. Until I can understand myself better I can’t help others understand my experience.
But I absolutely hear you - it feels overwhelming and and lonely sometimes.
I’d add to this … I apologize to myself for harming myself in an attempt to overshadow the harm from others under the guise of feeling I had some control.
i love this addition. I also need to apologize to myself for that, and for putting everyone before myself even when I’m drowning
I cant pinpoint any particular thing, I’m just feeling down tonight. I am pretty tired and worked the 3rd double this week today, so maybe I’m just overtired. But I’d love to fall asleep/wake up to some uplifting or cute or funny thoughts, pictures, or memes 
if anyone feels like it.
Sending y’all love 
I wanted to share this post from earlier:
Knowing some of you on this thread will appreciate it. 
I overcame myself, the sufferer; I carried my own ashes to the mountains; I invented a brighter flame for myself.
~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Wow, Sassy! I love how our two posts there aligned
