Wow, so beautiful rosary! And oh my, you have a lot of praying stuff, wonderful! Thank you for sharing, my friend!
@tailee17 Haha, good one!
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Today I crashed down mentally like never before. I had to call an ambulance and they took me immediately to a psych ward. I’m hearing voices and seeing things, I self-harmed myself and was suicidal. I’m scared as hell, everything feels so hopeless. Only ones I can to take refure are God and Jesus Christ. Sola gratia. I have my wrist rosary in my wrist and I’ve been praying Virgin Mary. I’m so tired for trying to survive and live a normal life, but it seems so impossible at the moment. At least I’m safe now until Monday when they are probably sending me home. I have a big meeting on Wednesday with my counselors and special social worker where they are trying to get me as soon as possible a more supported housing where there are staff 24/7. All I can do now is just to pray and have faith that everything will turn okay.
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I am so proud of you for calling an ambulance.
You are safe, and you’re doing what you’re supposed to do.
Continue to keep us posted. You’re in my prayers. 
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I´m glad you are safe and that you got through this sober. So grateful that you called the ambulance! I am sending lots of love, friend.
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@DanielaJ Thank you, my friends. I’m sad, really sad and full of fear. I don’t know how I’m gonna survive from all this, but I’m trying my best to stay hopeful. By God’s help and grace everything is possible.
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I hope you don’t just survive, I hope that you thrive.
It’s okay to have these very real feelings of fear and doubt. It doesn’t make you a bad Christian; it makes you human.
Give them all to God in prayer.
“Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
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Thank you for your beautiful words, my brother in Christ. I’ve been praying with my wrist rosary and it truly helps. I remind myself that relying on God I can get through everything. I just talked with a nurse and I burst in tears. I’m feeling so miserable and hopeless, but I still believe that God will help me. I guess I gotta just take one minute at a time.
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Just by being somewhere safe is God helping you.
You continue to reach out for help, and you’ve been doing the right steps.
This sounds as if you’re battling against your diagnoses. The chemical side of depression is exacerbating the feeling part of your BPD.
The hope lies in not only will this pass, it won’t always be this way.
With the right medication, proper therapy (DBT 
), and a lot of self-kindness, your life will look and feel remarkably better!
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Thank you. I’ve been in CBT but it didn’t help me. Next I’m trying something different. And my meds ain’t really helping, but it’s better to use them without nothing. I don’t know anymore what will help me. I’m so lost in the darkness that I don’t know how to get out of it. Gotta just try to survive and rely on God. Thank you your input.
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I totally to get it!
DBT was created by a woman who has BPD, for people with BPD.
It is scientifically proven to be effective in managing BPD symptoms.
I’m living proof that it works!
It’s just a matter of finding someone who’s trained/certified in it.
I’m sorry you’re struggling so much.
What can we do for you?
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I was pretty long time in CBT, but it didn’t help. Thanks, but I’m afraid you can’t do anything. Time will heal and discussions with God. I’m afraid they are sending me home tomorrow which would be devastating, but no can do. I’m so desperate.
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I can and will do what I have in my power for you.
Prayer. An ear to listen. A voice to speak truth into your heart. A digital hug. I could mail you a hug! 
Don’t believe depression. It’s trying to protect you, but it’s not serving you anymore.
You’ve got this, but stay in the moment. You can’t control tomorrow.
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Thank you, man. You’re absolutely right although now not listening depression and living in the moment feels impossible. But I appreciate your encouraging words so much! Luckily I have my wrist rosary to lean on. Mother Mary is so dear to me. I will survive from this hellhole, deep inside I know it.
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Get well soon!
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Thank you, Jason! Much appreciated!
Sending love and hugs, my friend. I’m so sorry things are so painful right now. Keep advocating for yourself and what you need. I’m sorry you’ve needed to show such resilience, but I admire that you do.
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Thank you, Madds! Things are so are hard at the moment, but I’m confident that this shall pass. Luckily I’m still sober, I didn’t need any substances yesterday before I ended to call an ambulance. But I will survive from this shit.
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I love this, thanks for sharing!
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As someone else who has BPD and bipolar thank you for being so transparent about everything you go through.
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