I slept well but I saw again using dreams. Seen those a lot. This time I was drinking wine with David Bowie. It was wild but when I woke up, I felt good. It was only a dream.
It’s again a gray day. Looking forward to go for a run/power walk with Vibram Fivefingers. I love the feeling of moving with barefoot shoes.
Have a nice 24 everyone!
40 AF, 45 without weed
I saw some really disturbing dreams and nightmares, I couldn’t get any sleep for a while. But now I’m okay.
Just came from the church’s food aid, so now I have food for couple of days. Today is a rest day from running, but I’m gonna go for a 45 min power walk. Other than that I’m gonna start re-reading Born to Run, it’s one of my all time favourites. It is so inspiring book and it got me running 17 years ago.
Have a great one, together we can stay sober!
I’m sorry to hear you’re still having nightmares. Is it possible that your brain is feeling safe enough to work through difficult emotions now?
I dunno, man. Like @Butterflymoonwoman said in another thread, anxiety is future-based and that’s true for me. I have a tendency to have bunch of irrational fears about future, I just can’t live in the present moment. But I’m still at early recovery and I’m sure everything will be allright in some point.
Everything is alright right now. Is it ideal? No. But when is it ever? You’re sober, safe, healing, and fierce as hell. 
I’d say that’s pretty alright to me. 
You’re right. But I just can’t get a grip of it, my mind is nothing but a chaos and compulsive thoughts.
Crazy vivid dreams are one of my favorite things about recovery. I occasionally have crazy vivid terrifying nightmares too. I dont like those much but they are interesting. Your doing great!
One of my favorite moments in life was when I had an Occupational Therapist tell me that when my mind is chaotic, out-of-control, and anxious, to imagine it like a really messy room. On the macro level, it’s overwhelming; on the micro level, it’s a bunch of small projects. To clean a messy room, bend over and grab the first thing and deal with it. Sometimes you have to step over other things while you put that first thing where it belongs. But if you focus on the little projects, before long, you’ve cleaned the whole room!
When my brain has been out of control, filled with fears, I have literally told myself out loud, “this is inappropriate to think about right now. If you can’t help me find a solution, I need you to leave and come back when you do.” Then I focus on things I can control.
It’s hard. It takes practice. It takes being chemically balanced enough to effectively do it. But, it works for me.
What’s been working for you? You’ve been doing so well?
Wow, thank you, Jason! Peer support about crazy dreams, wonderful! When my counselors gave me temazepam to help me sleep better, I didn’t saw dreams at all. But nowadays I refuse to take benzos and although I’m having nightmares, it’s better than sleeping like a zombie.
Weed also makes most people dream less. Good for you for not taking benzos. That can be a ruthless addiction all by itself.
Yes, you’re right about weed. And indeed, benzos are dangerous for us addicts. I don’t want to touch them at all.
I slept well and this time I didn’t see any nightmares. I’m not feeling well, it’s one of those days. Yesterday was a rest day from exercising, so today I’m going for a run/power walk. I don’t really have much else to say at the moment. I wish you all a great 24!
This day turned up to be pretty good after running/power walk in the hilly park. I love to train again, it’s a really important part of my identity which I neglected too many years due to addictions. But now I’m back and I feel stronger than ever. Can’t wait tomorrow’s exercise.
It’s a calm evening and I’m listening Anima Christi and Ave Maria on a repeat. I love to listen those before going to bed, they calm me down and helps me to restore my faith to God and Jesus Christ. I’m so grateful to be alive and healthy. It’s a miracle that I didn’t suffer any damage to my organs because of my heavy drinking. Thank you God, thank you Jesus Christ for protecting me, a sinner.
Amen, amen! 
42 AF, 47 weed free
Sun is shining, it’s a warm spring weather. Can’t wait to go for a run/power walk. I’m feeling fine today and I’m gonna enjoy of it. I wish you all great sober 24!
I am so happy for You! Enjoy the sun and moving your body 
Thank you, my friend! It was so awesome to exercise when sun was shining and it was warm. I’m so happy that spring is finally here. It lifts up my mood. How are you doing today?
Here’s my Catholic Rosary. Although I’m not Catholic, I’m Evangelical Lutheran, but we use also Rosary but for example Hail Mary is a shorter version. My TS friend taught me how to pray the Lutheran version. I love it!
@ICanAndWill Would love to see your Rosary!
I love it! The Catholic version of show me yours and will show you mine. 
This is the one I use most often, although I have a couple.
I also have a blue chotki, an orange Anglican prayer rope, and a 20 decade rosary, and a bunch of chaplet beads.
It’s a great way to enter into prayer and meditation.
It’s a beautiful devotion.
Thank you for sharing this with me. What’s the most beautiful thing about it is you’re using it.
