Another day to tackle. I slept pretty good but woke up really early and couldn’t get sleep anymore. Gotta take a nap in some point. It’s a beautiful day, so I’m gonna go for a walk today. I haven’t excercise for a few days, not just feeling like it. I have only took regular walks, I don’t wanna push myself too hard. Anxiety and depression are lurking, but I can handle those. I’m amazed how easy it’s been to stay sober, no cravings at all. Of course I have to stay vigilant, but so far everything has been going really well. I love to be sober, to feel emotions pure and like how they come and go. My head is clear although I still find it hard to concentrate on reading books and watching movies, so I’ve been mostly just listening to music. My doctor increased one of my meds if that could help me to concentrate better on daily tasks and to ease the anxiety and depression. I’m hopeful. I’ve been praying a lot, it feels good to talk with God. That’s all for today’s update. I wish you all a great 24! Let’s stay sober today! ODAAT.
Thanks for asking, my friend. I’m doing okay, sobriety is going really well. 65 AF, 70 without weed. Feeling good and confident. I saw your check-in, you’re doing so awesome! Proud of ya!
Sober days are nicely stacking up. I’ve been a week at the psych ward in a nice little seaside town. I have received psychiatric physiotherapy which has been good. Doctor is also adjusting my meds if they could get rid of my psychotic hallucinations. But overall I’m feeling quite good and sobriety is on a firm and solid ground. Nothing to complain about. I wish you all a great 24!
I had today a psychiatric evaluation about my current state and psychotic hallucinations. Psychiatrist is now suspecting that I might have a schizoaffective disorder, milder version of schizofrenia. I still have a psychologist’s interview to confirm it, but I feel relieved if I get the right diagnosis and proper treatment. Bipolar and borderline just doesn’t seem right to my psychotic symptoms. I’m taking a break from this forum because I feel I don’t have anything to offer to anyone and besides my sobriety is solid without TS at the moment. So, thank you everyone for your support, stay strong and I see you when I see you! I love you guys! God bless!
And let me just break off that lie right now: YOU ARE VALUABLE AND CONTRIBUTE A GREAT DEAL TO THIS FORUM! YOU CONTRIBUTE LOVE, LIGHT, EMPATHY, AND COMPANY. THAT’S MORE THAN NOTHING. TO ME, THAT’S BEEN EVERYTHING!!!
It’s been really hard lately. I’m really depressed and on a verge of constant panic attacks. I went to the groceries today and it was pure hell, but I survived focusing on my breathing and concentrating on God’s help. I’m on a new med to prevent my hallucinations, but I’m not sure whether my panic attacks are due to it or am I just having tough times. I don’t have cravings which is good. My sobriety is solid and strong. I’m reading a really good book about Christian mysticism which been helpful. I just wish that I would enjoy my life and not suffering all day and night. I hope you all are having a good one! Love you, guys!
