Welcome @Sulla Addiction is a real animal. Worse than an animal actually, because animals try to live in balance, and addiction wants everything.
Stick around and keep up the effort. Reach out to connect with people in recovery, daily; keep an open mind; learn; practice (especially when you don’t want to - reach out and connect!); and repeat. It is possible with effort.
This thread has some helpful groups, books, and podcasts: