Welcome, friend @Blueshortshorts , and our other new friend @kimcee. Your life can get better, your mind and your spirit can heal, each sober day a little more.
I’m one who could not stay sober on good intentions alone. I had to throw everything I had into getting and staying sober, including Antabuse, counseling, AA, and legal pressure with requirements to demonstrate sobriety every morning with a breath test. I found the right mix that worked for me, and I hope you can find that same fundamental willingness and a plan to go with it. There is a thread on here, Resources for our recovery that is chock full of great ideas to try.
Get through the first 3-5 days of physical withdrawal by treating your body as good as you can. After that, keep moving forward!
Blessings on your houses, as you begin your journey. 