When I first stopped I was unusually tired for a couple of weeks or so as my body adjusted. I only drank at night after dinner, occasional weekend binges, had no withdrawal symptoms or anything more severe. Felt much more energetic after getting through that time. Then, it was time to deal with why, not what.
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This is exactly what your addiction wants you to believe. You can’t buy into the moderating fantasy. Alcoholics and addicts can’t moderate. For us it’s all or nothing. ONE IS TOO MANY AND A THOUSAND IS NEVER ENOUGH Each day you don’t drink is one day closer to being free from our disease.
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Dammit. 
sigh.
You can do this. Breathe and re focus. I am hitting day 70, but I rarely think about the numbers. I honestly can only take on today, and by doing that I don’t get overwhelmed. Be kind to yourself, sleep when you can, fill up on the chocolate 
and be proud of yourself!!
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Day 4.
Well, well, well. Look who’s plugging along. Feeling OK today. Drove past the liquor store and looked at it as if I wasn’t invited to the sweet 16 party. I got over it pretty quickly.
Another favorite nonA beverage of mine is an Arnold Palmer (tea + lemonade). Had that with dinner.
My face looks better. Under eye bags are going away. I’m proud’ish of the progress.
Can I get an air high-five for Day 4? 
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get it! Day 9 here.
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Make Day 10 your b*tch.
Keep up the awesome work. My heart smiles when I hear stories of people winning the deadly battle of addiction
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you’re doing dude! I’m almost 140 and everyday I applaud myself for being strong enough to resist. It’s gotten easier to say no thanks. Waking up sober is my favorite part!
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@Mint4Greatness: The one story my addiction therapist tells me that always resonates withme is about an intervention she had to do with a band about 30 years ago. The guitarist was addicted to heroin and his band mates came to her hoping to get him to realize he was in deep. When confronted, his reasoning for continuing to do heroin was that he was a better guitarist while on it-he felt the music more. He was afraid without it he wouldn’t be good anymore. Every single one of his band members told him that he actually wasn’t that great when fucked up playing and showed so much more passion and connectivity to the music without it.
We all have these weird ideologies about ourselves that with a substance we are more fun, more sexy, more interesting. Our low self esteem and our addiction combined tell us that we aren’t good enough without that substance. I can not tell you how many times my boyfriend has told me over the past five months how much fun sober Emilie is. How much more engaged, funny, smart and interesting I am. I drank like you-day in day out. Couldn’t fully sleep without waking up halfway throughout the night needing to down a glass of wine to rid the shakes. I knew I needed to change but changed too late. I ended up with liver cirrhosis at the age of 28. Actions come with consequences but with that consequence I know I will never pick up again. Learn from my mistakes. You’re better than the bottle and you have the ability to change. Don’t let the addiction control you. We are here for you. Stay strong and keep me posted.
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This post is right on and relatable, thanks for the share! 
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Holy actual sh*t this is good stuff. Wow. Interesting that the band mates had the ‘come to Jesus’ with him to finally tell him he wasn’t actually ‘that good’ while using. Crap, makes me wonder about my circle; what would they say about me?? 
they don’t know I’ve been under the influence. Thank you for sharing!!!
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You’re doing well man, keep it up. Keep using this app and keep checking in every day. It’s extremely important. I stopped using this app after day 60 and here I am back at day 1. I think this app is very useful in reminding us that there are others out here like us who also want to live a clean and sober life, because the majority of the people we’ll meet along the way might make us forget that. Keep your head up
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I feel for you I really truly do as I use to think life would be boring without alcohol. Yeah, years ago I was just having 3 drinks so that I could have the courage to sing and be the “Life Of The Party” With one host saying "Nora is here and a party doesn’t start without her! “. I remember thinking “Wow, I am a cool person now”. I thought without the alcohol I wouldn’t be able to be confident, funny and have fun. I thought I’m not that very awkward, shy, bullied, abused and unwanted kid anymore because alcohol was helping me get past that. I thought without alcohol, I would be a nobody and that life would be boring. Cut to 4 years later after that and I had to drink more alcohol to feel social and to medicate myself because of anxiety, mental and emotional stress. Then finally isolating myself, becoming wary of people, cynical and inwardly angry. At that time I was binge drinking and blacking out for 2-3 days straight. Then ending up at the hospital and detoxing. By the time I became 46, I decided I wanted to let go of the alcohol. It tortured my body, my mind, my heart and my soul. I was in love with the evil abusive liquid that is alcohol. It would comfort me at first, but the more I drank it, the harder it abused me. I started doing meetings and even got a sponsor. I was almost a year sober until I started living in a household whose renter was controlling and I would said nothing, but would be angry internally. The anger would get so intense that I would just walk away shaking desperately wanting to calm down, hence, I relapsed with alcohol and started the whole cycle again. I would drink to oblivion, detox at a hospital and swore I would never drink again. Would be okay after detox and doing meetings, but whenever I felt any type of rejection or control, I would feel hurt and intense anger again. Oops, relapsed again. I went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have all the signs of it. One of them escaping through substance abuse. I hated the diagnosis. Thought if I hadn’t had a mother who neglected me and emotionally abused me and a father who didn’t even acknowledge that I existed, I wouldn’t have had the diagnosis of BPD. Still after about a month of sobriety I drank thinking this time I will just have three tall strong beers only to come to and 3 days later would feel devastated, anxious and horrible. This last trip to the hospital I was well taken care of and a chaplain and I talked. I believe she was sent to me from God because she was very understanding and said comforting words to me. The words she said that really stuck with me is that I have to have a renewal of the mind. To trust God and have faith that he would restore me. To learn to let go of the past and give love to my inner child. That I’m worth it. After my last relapse, I was determined and willing to do anything to have a life of sobriety. To let go of the lies that alcohol told me(One of them being that I needed it to comfort me when I felt worthless and emotionally hurt), to go to AA meetings immediately and regularly, to get a reliable sponsor, to connect with people in the AA meetings working on their recovery, to work on my Borderline Personality Disorder and finally, to surrender it all to God. He is the father who has always been there for me when my father didn’t give me so much as a thought and he is the mother who has always cared and loved me when my mother neglected me, didn’t protect me or rarely showed me love. There is absolutely no way I could do this without my higher power whom I call God. The Lord who will never fail me. Staying sober does take work, but it has so many rewards. And guess what? I have become more confident, peaceful and have been more fun without the alcohol. Yeah, here and there there are times I get some anxiety, but I just take a few deep good breaths, pray and tell myself " Nora, you are worth it. Keep loving yourself and take care of your inner child.” Alcohol is not attractive to me anymore. It was like an abusive lover whom I finely got sick and tired of and broke up with. My life is much better now and my thoughts more positive. My mind, my body, my heart and soul are healing. I am of value, I am worth it and I feel blessed. Finally, just take it one day a time because we only have today and breath. Trust me. Life is not boring without alcohol. It is a wonderful adventure without it.
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(Remind me to buy stock in Coke / Topo Chico)
Might I recommend some Agua Mineral Preparada? Topo Chico, Tajin and lime, ooooh man. I like to use diced, frozen watermelon as ice cubes.
And me personally, if I had a headache, I wouldn’t punish my self. I’d be sucking down that sweet, sweet BC headache powder. Knock that headache out before it gives me an excuse.
Hope you have a great, sober day!
None of my friends nor my boyfriend nor my family knew how bad I was. I was throwing up blood every morning from the cirrhosis but needing to keep drinking because of the withdrawals. It was a vicious vicious cycle my friend. But we can overcome. How are you doing?
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Day 1 also girl 
we got this.