My Journey to Recovery From Porn and Masturbation

Life in Recovery
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I’m 3 days clean from Masturbation and Dating apps and 19 days clean from Porn

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Great work on ur 3 days!! Not easy to do but ur doing it!

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I’m day 2 sober from Porn and Masturbation and Phone Sexting I engaged with a movie that had sex scenes but luckily I survived

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I relapse to masturbation by going on social media and fantasying over a ladies twerking, going on dating site to get random lady for phone sexting and which I couldn’t so I finally masturbated to fantasying over a ladies twrking

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Day 0 from Porn

Day 0 from Dating app

Day 0 from masturbation

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I would really recommend just not going on social media for the first couple weeks at least. That caused me a lot of relapses at the beginning.

And of course avoiding other things that are triggering for you. Dating apps would always be a trigger for me, or putting my mind in a place of thinking a lot about sex. Probably better to meet women by doing the things you love.

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I don’t go on social media to get triggered when I’m triggered the urge drives me to social media I have never watched videos of twerking before so it was very strange and dating apps are the same thing when the addiction debts in it drives me to these places I need help for accountability

I need help for the first three days especially in day 2 going to day 3 cause once it’s day 3 the relapse happens it’s like a time bomb

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I know what you mean about the first 3 days being like a ticking time bomb.

It’s good that you’ve also identified the need for support/accountability.

What resources do you have available in terms of support? Have you checked to see if there’s a sex/love addict anonymous meeting in your area?

I’ve joined a tantric semen retention course, but to be honest, if I wasn’t also in a support group and reading literature about the effects of pornography, I think I would be using this semen retention to just edge and not actually free myself from a life long addiction.

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Have relapse again after 3 days sober

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I’m one day sober and have deleted my instagram account and deleted all those numbers that can cause me relapse

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I never had an Instagram. Nora tiktok. I had a Facebook once, but it got hacked. And I never saw a very good reason to set it up again. I still have YouTube and linkedin. But I use those very responsibly. It helps it I have covenant eyes. And if I watch anything remotely risque, the app will light me up and send a nasty gram to my accountability partners.

I don’t see myself ever downloading some of those social media apps again. In fact, I consider doing that a level 9 behavior and a reset.

What would stop you from reinstalling Instagram again?

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Thank you for this enlightenment I’m seeing social meds especially instagram and facebook as a relapse now except it’s for work which I use the studio

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Day 2 sober from Masturbation, Phone Sexting, Sexting, Dating Apps, Social Media
Day 5 sober from Porn

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I’m heading to bed Day 2 sober since you all in Day 3

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Finally broke that addictive spell that makes me fall every three days
I’m day 3 sober from Masturbation, Dating Apps, Phone Sexting, Sexting, Social media
I’m day 6 sober from Porn

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Day 4 sober from Masturbation, Dating Apps, Social Media, Phone Sexting, Sexting
Day 7 sober from Porn

Thanks to my higher power

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I have 235 from porn and 29 from masturbation and orgasm. I started masturbating when I was about 13. I enjoyed the feeling and be started doing it multiple times a day. I was alat latch key child. I had my own house key at the age of 10, I’d let myself in, make a snack, watch tv until my mom got home about 4:30. My dad was a functional alcoholic. When I moved away from home and started experimenting with drugs and alcohol the sex, lust, and debauchery came along with and it became in part of my normal life. I didn’t realize how severe it was with the masturbation and porn until recently when I started living alone. I could watch it whenever I wanted, I got release wherever I wanted. I thought of it as part of my adult life but quickly realized how unhealthy it was. I started first with the porn and then realized that I couldn’t masturbate without the lustful thoughts and realized that on top of everything else (drugs, alcohol, and self harm) I’m a sex addict. I decided to abstain completely and focus on my spiritual health. I’ve realized that my body isn’t mine, it belongs to my Higher power who created me. That I’ve never married so technically I should be a virgin and that’s helpful me abstain. Also prayer and meditation to help me forgive myself and not feel tainted. Last night I had a relapse dream about MO. I woke up feeling like I had and realized it was just a dream but it felt real. You’re not alone. Congrats on your days and stay strong!

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Day 5 sober from Masturbation, Dating apps, Phone Sexting, Sexting, Social Media
Day 8 sober from Porn

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I relapsed to Porn, Masturbation, Sexting, Dating Apps, Phone Sexting, typing illicit words

I’m starting from Day 0

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Day 1 Sober from Porn, Masturbation, Dating Apps, Phone Sexting, Fantasy, Sexting, Social Media.