Can I just say that I’m really enjoying reading your journey on here @Daniellegurl. I think you are doing amazing! I bet the kids are loving having you 100% lucid and there. As you type I can see you slowly growing stronger. This journey is hard, I’m so honoured to be on it with you. Please keep posting here, it’s inspirational. Thank you! 
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Good morning Danielle
Happy Sunday - hope you had a lovely evening. 
check you out – flex those sober muscles girl! you are doing great
Happy Sunday to you and your family 
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So yesterday after we got to my husband and started helping him get his stuff out of his truck which I realized was a lot since he was basically living in that truck for the past 4 months. Anyway he didn’t bring up the argument at all so that was good.
We talked about me and the kids going with him tomorrow to drop off his last load. We love in Jacksonville and he has to drop off in Daytona and I was thinking that if we do go with him maybe I can convince him to stop by Daytona beach before we come home because I’ve never been there even though it’s only about 90ish minutes from us so we could make a day of it as a send off to his on the road life so we will see.
Oh also I went to the store the one I use to always go to and the guy there knows me well since I always got my drinks from there and I took the kids inside with me which I normally didn’t before but I told him I was sober now and he asked how long and I told him I was almost at day 5 and he thought that was really good and promised not to sell me any alcohol which I thought was very nice of him to care.
Lastly I ordered pizza and I fixed myself a salad with salmon, cleaned the kids new kitchen, changed the sheets and by then my husband and youngest daughter had fell asleep followed by my 4 year old and I actually put them in their own beds instead of them sleeping with us (even though the youngest came running in our room around 4am) and I dug out their baby monitor them I passed out I was so tired.
I’m still very sleepy today because my youngest woke up around 7:30 AM and had to drink some coffee just to wake up. As I’m typing this I’m in the kids room about to finish cleaning it up so I can put their kitchen in here then I’m headed downstairs to cook breakfast since my husband is home and today I plan on just helping him unpack, clean, play with the kids, and cook an amazing homecoming dinner.
Its been stressful at times but I keep reminding myself nothing is worth messing up my progress and I’ve been smiling more and just genuinely happy. I can feel myself starting to lose weight and I can also feel some of the issues I was having clear up. For example I never told anyone but I was losing feeling in the back of my toes so I knew I was close to being diabetic or already there or it could have just been drinking all those sweet alcoholic drinks but either way the feeling is coming back and I’m just so happy!!!
I really want to thank everyone on this thread for all your support and for listening/reading all my posts and interacting with me and helping me on my journey. You have no idea how much it means to me to have this level of support and just for people to listen to my rants lol.
Ok let me get to cleaning this room so I can start making breakfast. I’m sure I will post again later.
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These are my babies my oldest is Serenity but we call her Reni and she calls herself Re-Re and my youngest is Brooke but we call her Cookie or Cook. This was taken at the start of my sober journey when I took them to Chuck E. Cheese last week. I just wanted to put some faces to my family
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Beautiful babies! It makes me so happy to read how well you’re doing. Really put a smile on my face this morning! Keep it up, lady! You’re doing awesome.
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WOW - love how your evening turned out and a huge hug for the store owner for supporting your sober journey. I do hope you are able to check out Daytona Beach - that will be a lovely outing for you all.
Your girls are so beautiful - thank you for sharing their beautiful faces with us 
Happy Sunday Danielle - you are killing this sobriety journey - keep strong my friend 
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We are here for you. I am Jessey and I am an alcoholic. I was a binge drinker. You can do this. This community is very supportive.
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Gorgeous girls!! Great picture 🫶🏻:pray:t2:
Thank you all those girls are my reason for being sober and staying sober. They light up my life!!!
Y’all this journey is not easy at all but I’m at say 5 so I’m not going back ever again
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I have to tell you all about my day it’s been rough to day the least.
It’s been so hard having my husband back home and to know he isn’t going back on the road is bringing back the urge to drink.
I was able to finish my girls room and put it together so nicely they are very happy but as I’m cleaning their room he is complaining about not having space to put his clothes. When we got our new furniture I told him do not make a junk drawer with a lot of papers and tools and so on but he did. So now he is trying to put up so his stuff he expects me to move around my stuff so he can put his stuff up while I’m cleaning the kids room and trying to do other things. He proceeds to do like he always has done and that is be lazy. He laid in the bed and watched TV and was in his phone the entire time!!!
I had the kids even though I was busy around the house and I was hoping he would be more helpful with them but it’s more of the same. If he watches the kids he will pretty much lay them down and let them just watch their iPad until they fall asleep and he will go to sleep.
I decided to bbq today but it ended up being late like I’m not able to finish because it’s almost 11pm here so I’m trying to finish some burgers and cook my sides.
He was outside with me sitting down and complaining about how I’m bbqing, how late it is, how the kids not listening and running around too much. I’m trying to cook and the kids coming to me for drinks and snacks and to play and I’m trying to be everything for them and cook while he sits there.
It got to the point he was falling asleep and I’m running in and out and the kids coming to me for everything. I told him to just take the kids upstairs and I’ll wrap up and finish cooking everything else tomorrow.
He complained because the kids lost one of their cups that still had juice in it and talking about that’s why we find cups with juice in them but in reality he didn’t want to fix another one.
I wish he was still on the road to be honest and I don’t know how I’m going to do this with him coming home everyday. He can be impossible at times and soooooo lazy. He will stay in the room in bed all day.
Before you ask no he does not drink or smoke or do anything at all.
He has always been this way which is one reason I started drinking because I was so bored with him because we never do anything because he doesn’t trust anyone with the kids so date nights are none existent. Also he doesn’t participate out want to go with us when I do stuff with the kids.
I’ve talked about it with him but he gets mad and never change. So I’m changing and I feel he has the potential to get me annoyed upset and drink……
Sorry for the long post again
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Good morning everyone!!!
So it’s 3:56am here and my husband just woke me up to get myself and the kids ready to do his last run together.
I excited and scared if possible tension with him but I want to think positive and hope it all goes ok.
I gotta hurry and get ready so I’ll update as soon as I can.
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This is crappy behaviour. If he doesn’t move a finger he should shut the fuck up and go out of your way, you are his wife not his servant.
If you drank to cope with the situation it’s a clear sign that the situation has to change. If you like, join us on the loved ones thread. it’s not only for addicted loved ones, you are welcome to share any kind of relationship struggle and find support and kindness 
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So after some arguing back and forth e are finally on the road ave the kids are loving it!! We have never rode with him before so this is pretty cool so far. Me and the kids are in the back of the truck laying in the bed looking out the window and on our devices.
I wish my husband and I can communicate without always getting into it over every small thing. Since he is back home I’m going to try to get us back into marriage counseling.
I don’t want a divorce or anything like that and that’s mostly for the sake of my kids because I grew up without my dad and I refuse to let them not have that family with two patients in the same home. I dunno I guess
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@erntedank yes here sucks so much at times and complains so much it’s crazy
. He has to learn romance and communication, nays s both do I dunno
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Its a tough situation you are in. You are doing amazingly well with your sober days!
I do hope that you are able to convince your hubby into couples counselling.
Hope you all are having a lovely day today. Did you make it to the beach?
So today we did get to ride with my husband to Daytona but when I asked if we could stop by the beach he was basically like “is that the only reason y’all came just to try to go to the beach?” I’m like no but it would be nice and the kids kept asking if we could go as well. Basically he said no and we came straight home.
After we got home I started my normal trying to clean up and finish grilling. He acted like he was going to help but he sat down outside and fell asleep and left the kids running around when I thought he was watching them. I was so upset but he complained about being tired and how he only got 2 hours of sleep but he did sleep and stay in bed almost all day yesterday. He complained about how he still trying to make up on rest from being on the road and about how me and the kids took a nap on the way home which was only less than 2 hours. So I told him to go to bed and I will cook, clean, watch the kids, and do the stuff he needs me to do.
My body is tired and I’m so tired but I just litter it go.
Lastly right now I’m feeling super super depressed to the point I started tearing up and just came in the bathroom to get away from him. Basically my aunt totaled my car back in June and since my husband been gone I’ve been using his car like it was mine. Now he’s home and me and the kids are going to be stuck home all day everyday starting tomorrow until he decides I can get another car. My aunt is giving me $1000 on Wednesday for rent for her staying here and to start helping me with the down payment for whatever car I get. I told him she wanted me to use that money for a car and he dismissed me talking about how we can pay other bills, his car needs an oil change which is going to be expensive, and so on. So basically he spent the money before I even got it…… 
. I was hoping to go to the place we have gotten all our cars from in the past because they are good at working with us on the down payment but it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen.
I haven’t been without a car in over 5 years especially with two kids and now starting tomorrow I’m going to be stuck here with the kids and I never wanted to be stuck home during my sobriety because when I was drinking I never went anywhere and now we’ve been going to the park every morning and just doing random stuff to keep me busy and now I have to figure this out. I hate this.
I’m sorry for all these long posts but my sobriety is being tested very hard since my husband came home and I don’t know what to do from here.
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How comes he tells you what to do and use your money? That’s bullshit. You are his wife not his slave, servant or belonging.
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