Thank you @tailee17. That’s really cool your dad did that! What a great memory 
I never grew up watching them and felt really lost at trivia last week- so trying up catch up now that they aren’t as terrifying
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Kinda crazy to think that 4 years ago I was a stressed, anxious, frazzled, panicked mess, grasping at staws, trying to fight compulsively drinking (mind saying no, body reaching for the bottle anyway), trying to hide it, getting into fights with my husband, thinking I was getting divorced, on anxiety, depression and sleep meds.
I’ve come a long way- and looking back- i think the common denominator was alcohol. It was running my life and ruining it.
I am in control now. And I have to reflect and remember how bad it was. Because sometimes i miss getting tipsy- but I know how quickly getting tipsy turns into my drinking demon taking control.
So I’m still keeping Damon (my drinking demon) locked up. 4 years now.
It’s easier, alcohol is no longer controlling me it’s not the center of every event (happy things, after work things, angry things, dinner things, boat things,
pool things, summer things, winter things, sports things, every thing…). And my life has so much more going on, and even though I still have chaos- the chaos isn’t driving me to medicate with booze and prescriptions. I’m not getting the crazy ptsd flashbacks as often, i have less headaches, i wake up earlier, i don’t fight with my husband as bad, i have a more even keeled life.
So that’s my why today. I’m so glad I was finally sick and tired enough of being sick and tired and a passenger in my own journey that I used some grit and made a change.
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