Almost done another (productive) day.
My spouse commented this morning I used to always be grumpy on the weekends if i woke up before 8-9am… Lately I’ve been getting up at 530-700 and just doing things.
Really weird, but i guess it’s nice he noticed. He likes it - so that’s good. And i love not hanging a hangover!
Congratulations on hitting 100! That is absolutely awesome! So proud of you my friend! Thank you for being an inspiration!
Awww! Thank you dee! 
Prepping for St Patrick’s Day
I’ve always identified as Irish because my parents told me I was a European Mut, but mostly Irish (even though ancestry claims I’m more Scottish and no Irish now 
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Oh boy did I exploit that drinking gene in this life! Drink for good, bad, boredom, etc etc… St Pat’s may be difficult, I’m not sure yet… But I’m realizing I don’t want to lose this momentum.
I got triple digits (100!) early this March! I’ve never gone more then 34-ish days before, with an average of probably no more then 2 or 3 without something the past 25+ years.
I drank because this year was rough, and like all other rough times I drank. I drank a lot. I got super depressed, super anxious, hated everything, fought a lot with my spouse about my drinking. “Why was he so up tight-I’m not that bad?” & other nonsense.
I wasn’t sure what my goal was when I stopped drinking right before Thanksgiving. But I knew something really had to change this time. We’d had a bad fight the day before - again.
Thanksgiving & Christmas were hard, I did it with seltzer and grit. I avoided New Year’s by going to bed early with my niece & nephews.
Well now - I’m pretty happy & energetic most days. I feel closer to the vision of who I should be, or the person I think I used to be. I’m not taking sleeping, anxiety or depression pills… I’m waking up way earlier then normal & working on projects to help myself, my house or my friends.
Sure I have to find a new job in a couple months because I was so unhappy last summer that I put in my resignation out of hatred and spite, but I’ll find something, it will work out. My memory is better, I’m studying for a new certification (something I couldn’t fathom the last few years). I’ve had some health things pop up, but they are manageable & not worth making worse by poisoning myself. I might not have lost those 20 pounds yet because I’m eating more then I probably need to, but these calories are better then booze calories. I’ll get there. I have more energy and have been working out more.
I guess all my rambling is to say, I don’t want to go back to who I was. My drinking demon Damon is very seductive, and he really made me someone I didn’t like. I never really saw it until now. I drank to try and make myself better, but it never worked. I only got worse and more upset about myself.
So long story short, it’s taken me a long time to get here, but overall I’m glad I’m here. I hope everyone can keep their perspective and call out your own drinking demons for the shady souls they are.
And I’m having Green Tea for this St Patrick’s day.
YYYAAAYYY BEACHY!!! I remember when you came here and I was soooo rooting for you!!! I’m so f’n proud of you!!! Good job on the triple digits!!! I’m throwing a corned beef, cabbage, and red potatoes in the crock pot for St. Pattys… even though @Conor689908 says they don’t do that in Ireland 
But nonetheless, better than booze right? 
I wish I could give you a big big hug right now!! 
Thank you so much!!! Your meal plan sounds delicious! Yummmm
113, my old favorite holiday is over. And i didn’t even think about it until the lady at the gym asked “where is my green…?”
Kinda crazy i forgot completely about st pats day!
Guess things really do change when you’re not focused on drinking all the time.
#116 Workout, went and got some crawfish, washed the cars, refinished the last two pieces of wood for the boat & the outside plant stands.
Caught up on mail…
Accepted a new job offer 
Over all low key chill day.
Way different then my old Saturdays, but knocking stuff off the list instead of letting it pile up.
4 months!!! 
Thank you! I’m so stoked and surprised!
WHOOP WHOOP. . .look at you kicking ass. Congratulations 
Had my screw removed & some microfracture cartilage repair knee surgery yesterday. Won’t be able to walk at least 4 weeks. This is going to suck.
But I Can honestly say I hate the way the pain meds make me feel from surgery. I can’t sleep all woozy feeling…I want to stop taking them asap. I’ve really grown to love non altered brain- sounds crazy to admit considering where I was just a few months ago
I just read your story and then noticed it was back in November. I scrolled down hoping to see something like this. Congratulations! Keep kicking butt! I just completed my first month a few days ago and it seems like so long ago. I love seeing people on here excelling in their journey. It’s inspiring. Congrats again!
@JDhangover thank you! Congrats on your month! I never thought I’d be “here” @ 4 months+! And on top of that enjoying it. Some bumps in the road, but all worth it. Many others on here with way more time. It does help “seeing”/ reading everyone’s journey
Sending prayers for a swift recovery and congrats on 4 months! You are doing the thing!
So awesome!
What it sounds like to me is one badass that’s kicking ass. I’m so proud of you and your speedy recovery is in my prayers.
I can relate to your story very much ans I empathize. They key here is to accept you are an alcoholic without feeling like that’s a bad word. We can never run from abusing alcohol. If you have a great relationship and are in a great place, that is wonderful, but trust continued drinking may eventually take it all away if you don’t change. I’ve drank heavily for 27 years and didn’t accept I was an addict until about 10 years ago after getting my 2nd DUI and spending 45 days in jail. I still continued to drink. After deciding to sober up about 4 years ago it was too late too save my marriage of 16 years which sent me down s black hole after not having a drop for 6 months. Life is so much better in every way without alcohol for people like us. I hope just a small part of my story helps you in some way.
I’m sorry I didn’t read the entire thread, just the original post. Congrats so much on 4 months!
here’s the long and short of 9t and why any addiction is just a minefield of contradictions …
you’re not sure if you want or infact need to give up the drink, yet you say you are probably allergic to it and it gives you severe migraines ? that’s called insanity ! and part of addiction instead of saying “I don’t think i need to give up drinking” say “I need to give up drinking” …you seem to have tried what we call controlled drinking and it’s not working …I’ve been there I’ve thought youre thoughts we all have here whatever our addiction …it seems you have tried 3verything “but” giving up …you’re life has become unmanageable, in finishing ask youreself as you sit there life not how you imagined it or want it and have i got anything to lose by stopping drinking working on youreself and allowing you to be you …good luck we are all here for you x
