If that’s what you want to do, do it!
What can you do instead? Go for a walk? Eat something? Meditate? Sleep? Put your focus into something that WILL serve you and actually make you feel good, not just give you a short chemical high followed by a horrible crash - I’m sure I don’t need to tell you about the sleep deprivation, anxiety, agitation…
Here’s a link to some meditations if you haven’t tried it before:
https://talkingsober.com/t/meditations-for-recovery/362
And if you haven’t seen this thread already I would recommend it, lots of good advice 