Join a group. There’s groups online and in person. Show up. Go to more than one meeting a day if you have to. Go to a meeting at lunch, during your work day. Introduce yourself and get to know the people there.
You’re a good person who deserves a safe, sober life. You can have it if you want it more than anything else.
You don’t have to run; you don’t need to run. You need to stand and learn to love your sober self in all his complex up and down incompleteness.