Im having alot of mixed feelings about going back to my hometown. That is where I can acquire substances easily and Im worried being back knowing I can get it will make this so much harder
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Check in here and read or post anytime you feel triggered. Delete contacts and avoid your old crowd if they use. You can do this, best wishes to you.
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Don’t go!
I would put my recovery first and not go.
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What’s your reason for going? Do you have to?
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If your sobriety is at risk you may want to hold off on your return/visit back home. I sugguest having a plan of action before you get there. How long have you been sober? Staying sober is a hard thing but so worth it. It looks like you are getting some good advice from this group. Stay positive,keep yourself busy during your visit. Check in with this forum as much as you need. You have our support and keep us updated how your trip goes.
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I think that is a very healthy and good fear to have,. My suggestion is change everything. Don’t talk to the same people, don’t go to the same places, don’t do the same things you used to be doing.
Good to hear u thinking about this 
thats excellent
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The friend group I grew up with wasn’t very large, about 6 of us who were really close. We all started weed, alcohol, cigarettes and chewing tobacco by age 14 and 4 of the 6 of us ended up on meth by age 20. I haven’t spoke with any of them since I was 19yo because I “got out” after my dad killed himself and didn’t want to fall back in. I’m 33yo now so it’s been roughly14 years since I’ve allowed myself to be around them, and one is a family member. I hope they’re in recovery as well but the only thing I know for sure is that their addiction caused them to be not very good people. I made a decision to leave that town, including those friends and family and became a first generation college student and the first person in my family to work a desk job (I worked at a poultry processing factory until I was 20. My mom, aunts, cousins all worked there any my brother and sister still do). I feel like I could drive through the town I grew up in and reminisce the good times, but I wouldn’t make contact with anyone from my “past life”. I agree with others here, if you don’t have to go then don’t. Invite the family to your place or something if possible if your trip was for going to go visit family. But if you have to go, I’d recommend cluing in a family member and making yourself accountable to them while there. Use life 360 to have your location monitored or even the Bark app to have your texts monitored by a close friend / family member. Good luck 
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I have to, that is where I live. I have nowhere else to go
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That is where I live. I have nowhere else to go.
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I live there. I’m just out on a vacation right now and it has helped me get sober. I’m five days now, but I do have to go back home. Because I can’t stay here forever.
Well, that is a tough one then. I-didn’t realize that.
Here’s a great thread. The very first post is Gold.
You got some big decisions a head of you. How bad do you want your sobriety. Like they say in rehab.
If nothing changes.
Nothing changes.
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