It will be ok, that’s what I found. I had a hard time quitting and staying stopped, too, and largely because I didn’t know how I would live without it. But when I came to believe that everything was going to be alright, and only that, without knowing the details, when I came to have that minimum of faith in a better life, that’s when I was able to get sober and get help to stay sober.
I used Antabuse, individual counseling, and AA meetings to get myself turned around. If you are willing to try, despite any misgivings you may have, that willingness will get you through.
Blessings on your house 
as you begin your sobriety.
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