I’m Kristy.
Im a child of an alcoholic and refused to go down that road for 42 years. Fast forward to the pandemic, working in medical field. Side note: I had weight loss surgery in 2017 and was warned of transference of addiction.
I started drinking a shot of liquor at night to help me sleep. I was instantly addicted. I quit working late 2021 due to severe anxiety/ptsd. I started drinking daily. 3-4 shots of 99 proof.
June 2024, i drove drunk for the 1st time. I went to rehab, discharged after 11 days due to insurance. Did well for a few months. Dad got very sick in December, Mom diagnosed with dementia in March, Uncle died in March.
I relapsed in Feb. Husband found out. Stopped again for a month and been hiding it since.
Husband is a wonderful human being and very understanding. I decided last Friday i had to be done (he was out of State). I’m putting myself and everyone who loves me through too much. Ive prayed to God for last year to heal me and I believe he finally answered.
Fast Forward to Sunday, my husband found a shot bottle hidden. No idea where it was but it was unopened. I told him I had no idea when it was bought (i truly dont remember and would have likely drank it prior if i knew it was in the house) He’s furious and believes nothing from me anymore.
We are a Christian couple and I am scared of losing him.
I’m sure many reading this have been in the same situation. I’m now praying he doesnt leave. We’ve been married nearly 15 years.
I’ve owned the poor choices I have made over and over. We both had the weightloss surgery. He says I keep blaming it on that. It was a huge factor but i take responsibility for not trying harder to stay sober once i knew it had become a problem. I’m grateful he didnt become addicted and I told him.that Sunday.
Welcome to the community Kristy.
Addiction really is so tricky and deceiving. It takes hold of you without your knowledge. You evtajen the step towards becoming sober and that is awesome.
We can not do this alone. Glad you found this community as it has been my saving grace. A lot of great threads to read through and loads of support here.
Check out this thread. We do need a plan in place to help us through.
I found that staying busy and changing up my routines helped me stay sober. Do not think of this as a forever thing. You will work on just staying sober for today. Wake up tomorrow and repeat the process.
Here’s another thread that may be helpful.
Wishing you luck and hope to see you around 
Welcome @SavednSassy there are others in this community who had weightloss surgery and fell into addiction. Sounds like youve had a rough time lately. Addiction and lying go hand and hand. Hopefully you and hubby can work through this mistrust but it will take time, communication, and transparency.
Do you have a sober support network?
I would love to connect to those other user as well
Iust started going to celebrate recovery. AA wasn’t for me in the past.
There are multiple roads to recovery. Take what works and leave the rest