Thanks! Got down to business early today and watched (listened to) a speaker meeting on youtube. I read about having a morning Meditation from some people on here. I’ve never done that. Never got drunk and sick when I was in rehab all those times and really getting to structure. I used to go into 6 month rehabs to get off the streets and I remeber enjoying them because everything was so structured and not difficult like my drinking days are. And I cleaned the house, literally. I called all those appointments I usually miss. Damage control, but its remarkable what one can do when I get off the couch. I accept difficult because it’s managable. You guys are structured. I dont work, and free time is not my friend. Niether are my old frriends. But God is. I ran with God all day. Have a nice evening.
I know exactly what you mean - I’m the same 
That’s good to hear you have found a rhythm that’s working for you. Getting into a groove is helpful - enjoy it! 
I’ll be honest, I’m tapering . I cant go to detox and cold turkey kilss me. 3 beers. GHot rid of almost all other stuff. Goal: AF by Wed. I sometimes wish I could go to detox, but I would lose housing probably. Excuses, but it’s complicated. I really want this. Today bwas so much better. I really am pursuing the spiritual aspects; it makes all the difference.
Hoping you find what you need Stay focused and keep reaching out; sobriety is all about learning to ride the waves of life sober. Reach out for supports, medical and recovery-related; be prepared to push yourself into places that are unfamiliar to you and maybe a bit scary. It is worth it