So I went to the surgeon today 
they gave me a shot in my shoulder and want to do a different kind of MRI 
I’m frustrated and irritated but I know I’m blessed and I’m trying to focus on that. On the fact that I’m able to even get seen by a doctor. That this isn’t my time as much as the control freak in me wants it to be, and I need to be patient. I need to let go and let God
emphasized text I am not in control of every single thing and that’s not a bad thing!!
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Hmmm 
I see so many people complaining and it kinda makes me feel guilty that they are saying they are so miserable yet I’m so happy and grateful. Healthy and more content and proud of myself then I ever have been
IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME??
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The attitude of gratitude can get us a long way, nothing wrong with you.
Im sure we’ve done nothing but complained about our misery when stuck in our addictions
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Nothing is wrong with you. For some people it just clicks. I think it has alot to do with if your really quitting for yourself.
My first attempts at sobriety werent really for myself if im being totally honest. I was doing it to please my wife and because I felt the responsibilty to be a better father.
My final quit was more about me. My wife and kids were motivation but I wanted it!
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The gratitude in this post is what is going to get you through.
We are lucky to live the lives we do. 7 billion people on this planet. We have a a roof over our head, food in our bellies, and access to some of the best healthcare in the world. Not many can say that.
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Some people have different baselines. Some people use the forum for different reasons and tend to check in more when they’re struggling. And we all have times when we feel better and worse. I know I have times when I am so stuck in my own head, gratitude doesn’t feel very available to me.
In early sobriety I was riding a pink cloud for a few months and EVERYTHING WAS AMAZING! Then life caught up with me a bit and I wasn’t really prepared to deal with it. But that was all part of my journey and I did deal with it. It might not work like that for you, it doesn’t for everyone, but it doesn’t hurt to be aware of it. Some good discussion of that here 
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Thanks for the feedback. And I quit along time ago and I was miserable but I was ordered by a court I had hurt someone in a fight and I didn’t want any part of being sober or for that matter I didn’t think that I needed to be sober… alcohol wasn’t the problem, I was… and that there was my mind set for a very long time. But I know how I feel and I’m strong lord knows I’m strong, but I’m happy and I have never stopped anything in my life that I didn’t finish and this will not be any different. I have bad days, I have days where I’m in pain I just don’t find negativity as a choice of how I deal with things because it doesn’t get me anywhere to be negative. Or it gets me sympathy which is even worse.
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Have to loose some of the smaller battles to win the war.
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You always speak truth and I always appreciate it
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A mouse was placed at the top of a jar filled with grains. It was so happy to find so much food around him that no longer he felt the need to run around searching for food. Now he could happily live his life. After a few days of enjoying the grains, he reached the bottom of the jar.
Suddenly, he realize that he was trapped and he couldn’t get out. He now has to fully depend on someone to put grains in the jar for him to survive.
He now has no choice but to eat what he’s given. A slave to his situation.
A few lessons to learn from this:
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Short term pleasures can lead to long-term traps.
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If things come easy and you get comfortable, you are getting TRAPPED into dependency.
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When you are not using your skills, you will lose more than your skills. You lose your CHOICES and FREEDOM.
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Freedom does not come easy but can be lost quickly. NOTHING comes easily in life and if it comes easily, maybe it is not worth it…
Don’t curse your struggles, embrace them. They are your blessings in disguise.
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I love this 
Thanks Hollz!
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Yes I can imagine making the proactive choice to quit makes it easier to be grateful for the challenges we face and appreciate they make us stronger in the end! No pressure, no diamonds 
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I guess maybe I was a little judgmental or idk inconsiderate in my post I’m sorry if I offended anyone or hurt anyone’s feelings. I surely didn’t mean to. I do wish that everyone was happy as I am but I do understand that not everyone is getting to make a willing choice to stop and that’s changes things
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We are here to learn though correct? And that was just a learning moment for me. I remember judged family the world telling me to stop and telling them to lol well I’m sure you can imagine where I told them to &$@! Off to. I am just so grateful for my own life and happiness I wish others were able to experience that but I know it’s in everyone’s time and every person has to hit there own bottom
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I didn’t think it was judgemental - it’s totally fair to say that different people react differently. I know I go through phases myself - sometimes depression just kicks my arse but that’s just another thing to learn how to get through. It does mean being positive comes and goes in waves, so personally I appreciate hearing from others on the forum (either new to sobriety or with more time under their belts) who are struggling with life on life’s terms, to remind me I’m not the only one! But it’s also great to read about people who are feeling super positive, it can be contagious 
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I mean I’ve been struggling with so much pain with hurting my shoulder but staying positive may be the only thing that’s kept me from my way back into old habits because I was a very pessimistic person when I drank and for years that pessimism was like a looming cloud that followed me around
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I love that, thank you
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Hey you guys we have 200 comments hmmm who would’ve thought 
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Mommy pride is well deserved here. She looks like she’s full of life. That’s wonderful
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