That’s it! I have decided! I am on my 7th try when it should have ended on the 5th try. (Honestly, should have ended a long time ago.
So, I am done. I am done using. I am going to do it this time, like come on. It’s the first day of the year, THAT is my motivation. 23 hours and counting. I didn’t even do anything last night but sleep 
I am going to try online meetings again to help me keep going.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. YOU CAN DO IT!