Thx 
@Cold I have invited you to a message thread we have where you will find many who face a similar challenge, and you will be able to read about things that have helped us.
You are not alone in your struggle. It is possible to overcome it. Porn - like drugs - is a hyperstimulus that lies to us, that tells us we can hide and avoid life. But - like drugs - it ends, and then we are back in real life, and we have to live life on life’s terms.
We have to learn to live life sober. I’m addition to the people on the thread I’ve invited you to, there are valuable resources here:
Don’t ever give up brother. You are a good person who deserves a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. 