Hello dear forum people,
An update from this Thursday morning…
Tomorrow another visit to the hospital is planned.
First off the old plaster, then a visit to the plastic surgeon to look at the nerve and tendon damage and then again to the plaster room for a smaller piece of plaster with which I can hopefully wash my left armpit properly 
The beauty of the last few days is that I’ve found that I’ve discovered a piece of faith I didn’t know was in me before, I dare to believe gently and a happy future And have opened my heart to the experience And experiencing the good and beautiful that this world has to offer instead of lingering in the dark and obscure in which I have been lost for so long. It is also a blessing that I have found my way back to the talking sober forum. The old and new acquaintances, distant friends who are still close, the support, the heart is put under the belt and you are encouraged to continue on the path you have taken. I therefore hope that in my own way I can once again inspire, help and/or be a listening ear or with a simple message assist those who feel called to do so in what he or she is going through. Recognizing or asking for help is one of the hardest things I’ve experienced in my life, yet I notice now that I’ve made the step back to this forum that I immediately feel like a fish in water again, somewhere feeling of being loved, being seen, experiencing warmth and help which has always been a frightening feeling for me. I want to thank everyone who has assisted me over the years, whoever fits the shoe put it on… But also the people I may not have spoken to personally or personally Ken are just as important here. I am still tied to speech to text messaging due to the existing injury so forgive me for missing some commas spaces exclamation marks at signs hashtags apostrophes and other punctuation marks and marks. 
Menno, beth, lulu, paul, Kate, Maartje, Jan, christel, JimmieG, Lisa and all the other lovely people who give me so much support, to many names to mention.
I am so very grateful to you. I have never been very religious other than the fact that I believe in angels and spiritual guidance but still I feel that there is more between heaven and earth that I know and can know. Everything will have a reason and all my feelings of fear, loneliness, anger, resentment, sadness and many more negative influences I see slowly wash away in an ocean where there is a small island with the name of this forum. This morning I voluntarily took a check to see what was or was not present in my body in substances and resources, I can now state scientifically substantiated that I am completely clean of everything I went out with in the past lesser period . I already knew it for myself, but I still list the result evidence to be reminded in this way of the steps I am taking. For now I’ll leave it at that and I’ll do my daily checks and link this story as a link below. With love and thanks for everyone, I wish you all a sober and healthy day. After all, we are already musketeers… One for all and all for one.
With love and God bless,
Just for today
Listen this beautifull song
