Great to hear from you my friend.
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Again, great to hear from you. Always enjoyed our communications. Happy you’ve found your strength again after so much suffering. I also fell into a dark place n was ready to give up after dealing with loss of control, physically mentally n financially. But month ago awoke n decided life is worth it whatever happens. I’ll share more details at a later time. Just thankful to be back n now seeing you on here makes it even better. Wishing you all the best with your recovery n upcoming procedure. Looking forward to sharing successes .
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Hi sweetie!! I’m so happy to see you back, but sorry to hear of your surgeries… Man, did I/we miss you here~!
So happy that Nala is giving you love, I’ll catch up with you later, just got to work. Big hugs!!!
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Yay !!! Glad to get back in touch with you.
Big hug and bless
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I’m glad you’re back. I wish you all the best in your surgeries. 
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Hello dear forum people,
An update from this Thursday morning…
Tomorrow another visit to the hospital is planned.
First off the old plaster, then a visit to the plastic surgeon to look at the nerve and tendon damage and then again to the plaster room for a smaller piece of plaster with which I can hopefully wash my left armpit properly 
The beauty of the last few days is that I’ve found that I’ve discovered a piece of faith I didn’t know was in me before, I dare to believe gently and a happy future And have opened my heart to the experience And experiencing the good and beautiful that this world has to offer instead of lingering in the dark and obscure in which I have been lost for so long. It is also a blessing that I have found my way back to the talking sober forum. The old and new acquaintances, distant friends who are still close, the support, the heart is put under the belt and you are encouraged to continue on the path you have taken. I therefore hope that in my own way I can once again inspire, help and/or be a listening ear or with a simple message assist those who feel called to do so in what he or she is going through. Recognizing or asking for help is one of the hardest things I’ve experienced in my life, yet I notice now that I’ve made the step back to this forum that I immediately feel like a fish in water again, somewhere feeling of being loved, being seen, experiencing warmth and help which has always been a frightening feeling for me. I want to thank everyone who has assisted me over the years, whoever fits the shoe put it on… But also the people I may not have spoken to personally or personally Ken are just as important here. I am still tied to speech to text messaging due to the existing injury so forgive me for missing some commas spaces exclamation marks at signs hashtags apostrophes and other punctuation marks and marks. 
Menno, beth, lulu, paul, Kate, Maartje, Jan, christel, JimmieG, Lisa and all the other lovely people who give me so much support, to many names to mention.
I am so very grateful to you. I have never been very religious other than the fact that I believe in angels and spiritual guidance but still I feel that there is more between heaven and earth that I know and can know. Everything will have a reason and all my feelings of fear, loneliness, anger, resentment, sadness and many more negative influences I see slowly wash away in an ocean where there is a small island with the name of this forum. This morning I voluntarily took a check to see what was or was not present in my body in substances and resources, I can now state scientifically substantiated that I am completely clean of everything I went out with in the past lesser period . I already knew it for myself, but I still list the result evidence to be reminded in this way of the steps I am taking. For now I’ll leave it at that and I’ll do my daily checks and link this story as a link below. With love and thanks for everyone, I wish you all a sober and healthy day. After all, we are already musketeers… One for all and all for one.
With love and God bless,
Just for today
Listen this beautifull song
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The addict
Alone he sits in his prison that has no walls, there are no locks yet he holds all the keys and can’t escape, there is one window but all he sees is the darkness,He is offered three meals a day but his hunger will never be satisfied, Strangely he is happy here with his endless supply of nothingness, a stomach full of self pity and a mind full of self loathing keeps him going for one more day.
There are visitors who he refuses to let visit, there names are Hope and faith, if only he would let them enter. Happiness and redemption wait outside his cell with an open hand but he will not take this step. This is where he stays unless he let’s a power in, a power capable of tearing down all invisible walls and drags him kicking and screaming back to a new reality one day at a time.
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Wow!!! Did you write this? Then publish!!!
You had me straight in the heart with the first sentence of the post above. Really beautiful , I think I will print this out and read it Everyday.
Thanks for this incouragement and words of wisdom.
With kind regards and love bless you
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I know you like this sort of thing so I wrote it just for you my friend 
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Glad to see you. Sorry to hear about your struggles. Rooting for you.
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!!!
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Hey there! Great to be in touch again
Have a good one and thnx.
Bless
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Today it’s gonna be pink
Today we went to the hospital in Dordrecht, South Holland, The Netherlands.
The original plaster, black, with the reason that I was also in a pretty black period, is gone. Sawing off a complete plaster arm with a Dremel seems scarier than it is, but in the end it itch a bit and I could actually laugh about it. The plastic surgeon looked at the nerve function of the damaged nerve and tendon. I got a new cast because it makes the PC heal better and the nerve damage in my hand is difficult to repair and in most cases never 100% and almost always in cases like mine not. This means the loss of feeling and part of my hand, but this is not very serious, actually I want to go with all of them. Then back to the plaster room. And as promised, the color of the day is pink. I was referred to a physiotherapist and will have to do a lot of exercises, but the wound I could finally see was smaller than I thought. A square of 4 by 3 cm about… The stitches are out and I now have a removable plaster and that’s nice just two weeks stinking like an otter I can wash my left armpit in a decent way again 
and that’s it again one day further in the trajectory of being sober and I am proud of myself with the things I see, the things I experience, and the things in which I make steps forward and can see that I have found a piece of peace that I had previously never got to know my life.
Below I will share the graphical part of the post with you, don’t worry, it’s all not too bad. We are moving forward in good spirits to the next operation and I will keep you all informed. My day is good and I hope yours is too.
With love and God bless.
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While I’m actually still very disappointed with my opioid relapse, I think I can be quite proud of the rest of my stats. It is not easy for a while and the future is uncertain, but one thing is clear, there is no future in life that is not sober.
Experiences from the past, today’s catchphrases, currently my pores are sweating… I’m not omniscient, still forgetting what it means when you count on speaking the lies that hide in preaching being under the influence and distorting the truth .
I feel strong, and lacking nothing I am becoming less and less pale. It’s a beautiful day of and an even more beautiful week.
Ervaringen uit het verleden spreken de slogans van vandaag, momenteel zwetend uit mijn poriën… Ik ben niet alwetend,
nog steeds niet vergetend wat het betekent als je erop rekent om de leugens te blijven spreken die schuilgaan in de preken van onder invloed zijn en de waarheid verdraaien, narigheden zaaidende belevenissen te kweken en zonder geweten het opkomende goeds aldoor maar weg…maaide.
Ik voel me sterk, word steeds minder bleek. Het is een mooie dag van en een nog mooiere week.
WooooopWhoooop
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Please do Sweet❤️
Just got news that a job awaits as soon as im back. Before and after next surgery… He wants ME!!!
BIG UP IN MY PARTICIPATION ISSUES.
the fact I will be in revalidation Soon didnt matter.
Blessed
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That’s great news Joost! Congratulations! 
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Yay! That’s great news! I’m happy for you.
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Thnx and rising i am… But my head head is struck by An immens pool of emotion, greeve and rats of sunlight that glimmer thrue litteraly jours and jours of crying… the well seems endless. Even now i cry and then i know , and than i dont know why…
Nor good, nor bad… Im stick in a look imbo of tears that remind me of so much pain and i Just can’t stop it. I finaly AM crawling up out of depression but IT seems endless… I know it’s good that i cry, am not in harms way…
But the recognition of what’s inside is overwhelming… deeper then a universe
@Girlinterrupted @SoberWalker @mno @Lisa07 … Any wisdom?
No emergencie but Just the Gravity of it? Any feedback would be most welcome
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I go through periods of crying both good and bad. More so in the early days of sobriety but I still have them now just not as much. I think it’s normal but then again I’m no doctor so it could be depression. You’ve got a lot going on health wise which could be the cause. I find it helps when I post about it or talk about it.
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