Ugh I relapsed and feel so shitty about myself
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Hi.
I really struggled in early sobriety but eventually I realized that in order to get sober and stay sober I had to put in a lot of work (mostly AA). Once sober, I started to learn some things about myself and better ways to deal with life.
I know this. I could not get sober and stay sober by not doing anything for my sobriety. I had to have a plan and stick to it.
So far so good. 
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In early days of sobering up I did NA online all day every day some days. Wish you well 
keep pushing through to the other side;
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I’m sorry. The shame is very powerful. But you came back here and let some of it out. So that’s good. I’ve heard relapse starts before we take that first drink. I remember when I was thinking of drinking for my birthday. And I told everyone here. And I got so much love and support that I didn’t pick up. As soon as that thought hit my head I checked in one the check in thread.
Glad you made it back so soon.
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Sorry you’re hurting after the relapse. I know how it feels. Make this your last day 1, read around and make a plan with us. And please please be nice to yourself.
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Hi.
How are you doing today?
Im doing better today, spending time with family
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I remember the feeling well. The crushing shame and complete confusion over how I could be back here again. The good news is you never have to do this again. You can make this time the time that sticks. What does your recovery program (doesn’t have to be a formal program like AA, just your plan) look like?
Sorry if these threads have been shared with you before, but golden advice in both.
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