Welcome, Gabriella, I’m really glad to chose to show up here. You know, they say it doesn’t matter how long or how much you drank, but what booze did to you. You deserve a sober go at life, not an early grave, and you’re in good company here to do that. Have a look around, there’s so much help it’s mind blowing!
Here’s a couple of threads with sobriety ideas and tips, I’m positive something in that mix will work for you.