Hugs my friend 
I am so sorry but this is not the end - its the beginning.
Yes— keep telling them that but more importantly- show them!
Go to meetings - find a sponsor- you are not alone
You will have to change up your routines and add distractions so that you can side step the urges.
This is an incredibly supportive community full of love and support - most of all it has 0 judgment. You are among peers.
Read the threads and join in when comfortable- the Checking in daily to maintain focus #55 helps me with accountability and my Daily Gratitude List. Gratitude The Air Of Recovery is absolutely amazing - gives me a purpose for life.
All sorts of hope my friend. You are stronger than your addiction. 
hope to see you around