One word on how you feel today

Bomdhil · June 30, 2018, 11:09pm

Today I feel defeated by my bad mood. It is difficult to close my mouth

Yomomma · June 30, 2018, 11:57pm

That’s been me every day so far!!! I do hope for both our sakes, we quickly sail through our rages!!! Chin up, deep breaths, and we got this!

Bomdhil · July 1, 2018, 7:13am

thanks . today I feel guilty for had been so moody yesterday. As you said I have to change for my good. Praying for you, please pray for me. Sometimes anger takes the best of me

Yomomma · July 1, 2018, 10:42am

I completely understand!! I have been distancing myself from most everyone because I’m afraid of my reactions. But I’ve also warned those that I care about to not take anything I say/do in the upcoming weeks personally. Day by day, we will take charge of our addiction and our anger will slowly slip away. We got this. Breathe, buddy!! Have a great day. Sending positive vibes your way!

Sonoflion · July 1, 2018, 11:02am

Fearful but I know it will pass

Yomomma · July 1, 2018, 11:04am

Grateful for today!

PrincessPachirisu · July 1, 2018, 12:48pm

Me too… and completely confused… things will get better!!!

mlb · July 1, 2018, 3:10pm

Focused (awake and clear headed this morning!)

Bear · July 1, 2018, 9:05pm

Broken…
Which is horrible as I’ve been clean for 202 days. And been feeling positive.

MandiH · July 1, 2018, 9:08pm

Hope you’re ok Bear, hugs!

Charlesfreck · July 1, 2018, 9:47pm

Hang in there Bear - that’s a hard-earned 202.
Drinking at whatever’s causing this only gives you an extra problem.

Yomomma · July 1, 2018, 9:59pm

Bear Hug
You got this!

Bomdhil · July 1, 2018, 10:02pm

thanks for the nice reply and feels good when someone understand your fight. I am on holidays and I hope to pacify my heart. Anger causes me the same void of my addiction. How much healing I need. God bless you and I will try to breathe !!!

CaptAZ · July 3, 2018, 6:44pm

Frustrated. Everything was going smoothly, hitting our marks with our case manager. Then she transfers and we get a new sheriff and suddenly we haven’t been engaging. Patience is the key, nothing happens overnight. Can’t control anything but my thoughts, feelings and actions so thats what I’ll do, focus on the positive and keep trudging.

CaptAZ · July 3, 2018, 7:11pm

Ride the waves, always cognizant of the undertow

Fozo574 · July 4, 2018, 12:32am

Sinking. The more days to come are a struggle.

MandiH · July 4, 2018, 12:35am

Don’t dwell too long there girl, you can’t change it. What you CAN today do is keep yourself from going back there. And then do it again tomorrow! Reflection is good and important for growth but be gentle because you don’t live in your past anymore.

MandiH · July 4, 2018, 12:36am

Sorry to hear that Fozo. Anything we can help with? Try to keep your chin up.

Fozo574 · July 4, 2018, 12:49am

It’s just me, I’m sorry Mandi. It’s a bit of a constant struggle to do right and be clean. I just have to learn how to do it is all.

CaptAZ · July 4, 2018, 12:58am

Forged mentioned this before and I think he was spot on. If you went back and redid it, you may not have the kids you have now, or be where you. You could be worse, you could be better but it’s purely unknown. Butterfly effect type stuff.

I don’t regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it, it made me who I am today. I stay away from getting too far head of myself too/the future because we can make very unrealistic goals or expectations. I belong in the here and now, making the best decisions I can right now. If I make the next right decision right with the experience of my past, my untold future will be alright.