It’s nervous to attend meetings. It’s tough because of all the shame associated with using and addiction. It’s hard to say, I don’t know what to do and I feel weak and I need help.
There are a lot of meetings options to choose from. There’s a good selection here:
Resources for our recovery
Many of them have online options (look around at the sites). You can usually attend these meetings and just listen - that’s nice on those first visits. 
It feels so good when you realize you’re not alone. It’s like a huge weight, off your shoulders.