It seems selfish and you will feel guilty, but please forgive yourself Kellie. You did the right thing. And you know it.
Now you can concentrate 100% on you and you alone.
It may seem daunting, all the things that have happened and then you get to thinking what-ifs as well.
Just relax and start to formulate a plan.
Search up “Newcomers” on here. There will be several threads that can help you formulate a plan.
AA is one way, there is also SMART and Recovery Dharma and I believe there are church run programs as well in the states.
You can also do it yourself but I’d advise you to maybe try going to as many of the above as you can.
Along with the codependency book, get a copy of AA’s the Big Book and perhaps the Recovery Dharma book as well.
I have all three and found them all extremely helpful.
Just take some time, read as much as you can.
Ask questions, and please. Stay connected on here, especially if you have no one in real life for support. I’ve been in here two years now and have made some solid friends.
It really does help.
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