Something happened to me 3 days ago. I went down and down. I feel very bad. Cravings are so strong. I am crying right now. I don’t want to drink. I don’t know what to do. It’s day 25.
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Congratulations on your 25 days TB. There is nothing a drink will fix. I know we all know that. But whatever happened a drink won’t make it go away. And then you’ll feel like shit. And shame. I’d personally get in a really hot shower and continue to cry it out. I did a lot of crying early on in the shower. Or a good angry power walk.
Just for today.
Hell. Just for right now. Go an hour and don’t pic up. Keep checking in.
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Sorry u feeling like this but look how far you have come…your doin it…keep goin…cry…shake it out…or have a walk get some air … Just ride it out tomz if a new day X 
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Whatever happened will not be fixed by drinking. Drinking will only make your situation worse. Play it forward: you drink, you temporarily escape whatever is troubling you, then you wake up and realize what you have done and maybe even realize that you have new problems to deal with because of the drinking. You’re back in that place where you already felt down because drinking didn’t make it go away, only now you feel worse because you relapsed and you feel sick and ashamed. The only way to get through this time is sober. You need to be clear headed to make the right decisions.
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One of my favourite quotes - it’s so true 
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Thank you for being there. I did not drink. I ate a huge meal. I had no other choice. It felt good but it’s still pushing me. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my dog. I feel so bad. Shower is a good idea. I think I will have now. I will keep thinking about the morning. This will pass I hope. But I must confess its too hard. Its not only in my mind I feel it physically. But I wont give up. At least try. I still cry
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Hi, great job for not giving in. Eating is a good idea, that would be my thing to do too. Is it too early to go to bed where you are? I love an early night and once in wouldn’t want to get out for anything.
You’re doing so well distracting yourself and you’re right, the craving will pass. Keep going one minute/hour at a time, 25 days is a huge achievement
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Your doing amazing, you’ll never have to feel like this again. Be strong 
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Nice job resisting!!!
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I hope you are asleep now and the danger time has passed. These ‘missed bullet’ experiences always make me extra grateful for sobriety and extra determined to keep it.
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This place and you beautiful people… You are amazing. I took a shower and I am drinking a soothing tea. It all passed. I am fine. It is 3.33 am here but I dont want to sleep yet. I hope it wont happen again because it was too hard to cope. I am extremely happy that I did not drink. Thank you all. We are a family I think. Now I am gonna watch some funny animal videos. It helps me a lot. Love you all.
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I’m glad you had a good meal, a good cry, a nice shower, soothing tea and funny videos. Get some sleep. Life is more bearable when we are rested, even when sleep was not so good. Closing eyes and focus on my breath always helps me to stay in the moment and shoo hamsterwheel thinking.
I hope you have a calm start into this day and here are hugs. Hugs always help. 
And happy belated birthday greetings to you!
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I think everyone here knows how you feel, I do, and I am not one to give advice on something I’m struggling with myself, but I find if you do something, anything ( well that won’t harm you or anyone else 
) that you might not bother to do usually it helps, even making yourself a meal or a cake from scratch ( funds allowing ) and eat it or even just some and give it to someone else, another thing that I find very therapeutic, which you may not , is going in thrift/charity shops and browse you don’t have to by anything but it’s fun and you do find some amazing things , and people who work in these shops just leave you to it they don’t follow you around waiting for you to buy something, and they don’t sell alcohol, basically it’s taking your mind away from the thing, get a really big puzzle or a lovely colouring book and pens, spoil yourself as you would a child who is going through a bad time, you are doing amazingly
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Doing great maybe try a meeting meet new sober friends who can help when you are feeling low wish you well
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There’s so much more than white knuckling it! Seek free assistance from a place of love and understanding. There’s so many programs out there! AA is really working for me, I’ve never been so humble, confident and serene.
Just a quick daily reflection!
THE BONDAGE OF RESENTMENTS
. . . harboring resentment is infinitely grave. For then we shut ourselves off from the sunlight of the spirit.
AS BILL SEES IT, p. 5
It has been said, “Anger is a luxury I cannot afford.” Does this suggest I ignore this human emotion? I believe not. Before I learned of the A.A. program, I was a slave to the behavior patterns of alcoholism. I was chained to negativity, with no hope of cutting loose.
The Steps offered me an alternative. Step Four was the beginning of the end of my bondage. The process of “letting go” started with an inventory. I needed not be frightened, for the previous Steps assured me I was not alone. My Higher Power led me to this door and gave me the gift of choice. Today I can choose to open the door to freedom and rejoice in the sunlight of the Steps, as they cleanse the spirit within me.
From the book Daily Reflections.
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All rights reserved.
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Hello again my dear friends. After 10 hours of sleep I am here again. Thankful to be sober today. I think it was a crisis about body not mind. It passed. I think that when it is about body its better to focus on body and do something for it. Eating helped a lot I must say it. Shower, crying and sleeping. You all helped a lot. Thank you. Now I feel hollow. Now I surrounded myself with my 5 cats. And here is my coffee. We are just sitting here. I am an alcoholic and alcohol is not for me. I could never be a moderate drinker so I must keep being sober. That is simple. Thank you. Love you all. Stay sober.
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I love this as I am on day 65 and struggling
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Day 65 is great. Have you looked at the inspirational quotes thread? It’s one of my favourites. Not sure how to link…
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Awwwww, 5 cats 
It’s normal to feel a bit hollow after a breakdown like you described it. Be kind to yourself and have a nice, calm day. It’s good you take good care of yourself
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