So I’ve been checking out anti porn sites every day. It’s helping me to drop the lie that porn is glamorous. Right now I don’t even want to think about acting out. It’s too much to entertain myself with someone who’s probably getting emotionally or physically abused. So why understanding this truth isn’t always enough to keep me from acting out. Knowing these things didn’t stop me before. The answer to that is because my addiction to porn and MB is a coping strategy. Since I was a 3 year old, I’ve use fantasy, MB, and porn to mask the pain and stress in my life. I imagined that women really like this. And porn reinforced that fantasy. Pornographic sex is what I taught myself to depend on. It’s what life was worth living for. Trying to reverse that trend 40 years later is impossible without God’s help. But it also requires me to take on new coping strategies. And many posters here understand the dangers of white knuckling. It’s not that much different with any addiction. We still do what we do because we haven’t successfully discovered a new way to cope with our lives. We know it’s bad for us. But having that knowledge doesn’t seem to help without additional tools and resources.
Hello everyone,
Today I am reminded of how similar we all are. Different addictions, but boy! We are really all alike. It’s nice to be part of a community that’s very encouraging and supportive. Focusing on the people and supporting one another and not on the addiction. Hats off to everyone here for being part of something huge. We’ll have no idea how many lives are being impacted in a better way simply because of the support that’s offered here. So thank you everybody.
On a side note, I’ve not been remotely tempted to act out. I can’t get over how disgusted I am with myself for what I got myself involved with. Something clicked inside me and I simply don’t even want to think about it. I honestly never felt like this before. I’ve always had this burn to use, but I’m not experiencing that at this moment. So I’m just continuing to reinforce my good habits and allow myself to make the most of this opportunity by educating myself about the truths of the porn industry and hopefully I can stay in this serene moment for a little while longer. 
Very well said. Addiction is an addiction! They all have common elements where the addict is obsessed or have a compulsion to use/act out. Ultimately, we all need to address or psyche or mental process to create change.
I’m glad you here and sharing your experiences and making us a stronger community.
Hi everyone. I just wanted to let you know that I moved my journal to the Life in recovery section. It’s labeled “Kevin’s accountability log”.
Continuing the discussion from Kevin's accountability log:
Hey everyone my name is Mary Ellen and I have been clean and sober sense June 14, 2014 and I have locked up with two counts of domestic filings to one count of assault and I checked myself into detox and rehab and I have gone through relapses after relapses after relapses and I wondered decided to quit altogether everything that I was doing I am a recovering drug attic it and it is a good life that I live I love my son and I love my husband and I try to make it to AAA meetings but sometimes I don’t because lately it’s been nice it’s just me being lazy so it’s been a struggle some days but I’m still doing it and I’ve been through so much shit like my grandma passing away one of my best friends that I went to detox with passed away a couplemonths ago but that’s not stopping me from being clean and sober it comes with the territory
So true, having the knowledge of how bad it is and how some people are suffering through porn,it was like “ok that’s sad” and I’d stop for awhile and then before I knew it, I’d somehow come back. Like maybe looking at pics and saying it’s not as bad as watching videos,but it’s all wrong.
hey…I have a very bad addiction…yes…its pornography…I tried many times to quit…but,failed…recentlly,I found this app…hope,it will work…its like a drawning man is trying to catch a straw to survive…I wanna survive…hope,u guys will be with me…always…
Right on brotha. Keep truckin.
Hope you make it. The journey has it’s ups and downs,but quitting is better than being a slave. Welcome 
You’ve come to the right place. The app has helped me pretty well, and the forums even more so. In fact, I just got a notification that I hit three weeks! This is the longest I’d ever been able to go without porn by a full two weeks.
One thing I do when I have cravings is come here and answer posts and read. After a while, the cravings drop off, and I can go back to my (aspirational) new normal.