Glad to hear you chose to add nicotine to your list of substances you quit, and congrats on your years of sobriety from alcohol!
I definitely suffered from some wild withdrawals as well, you are not going crazy! I too basically had my vape on me at all time, and would also wake up in the middle of the night to take a few puffs. After smoking/vaping for 16 years the physical/emotional withdrawals were rough. I’m going to include a link below to a website that has some good info on withdrawal symptoms and suggestions for management!
I used an oral replacement that helped me deal with craving, a interdental brush that was made of soft plastic that I could fill the hand to mouth movement! There are a couple thread on TS about this subject that I will link below! Give these a read and maybe you’ll find something that will help you!
Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) (Part 2)
It’s a difficult task to be sure, but so worth it. No more morning cough, no more hacking up black gunk, and no more panic when I can’t find my device. Just to name a few things that eventually faded. I’m 5.5 months in and will say it is one of the best decisions I’ve made, period.
I’m glad to see you reaching out for help, please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need additional support!